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Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Love being Mommy

I will never forget when being a mommy really started.

March 23, 2007

-It was around 3pm well im not really sure what time it was but I know it was a friday. I didnt go to school(Plaza College) that day because I didnt feel like going & plus I woke up late and my class started at 10am. I dont know why my mom didnt wake me but kinda happy she didnt. Well anteeways I was watching TV and all of sudden I had to pee cause the baby was going hard on my bladder. REAL hard, shit felt mad weird. So I went to the bathroom and when I got in the bathroom I saw a drop of blood in my underwear (ewww I know) So the first thought that came to my mind was "OH NO I HOPE I AINT LOSE MY SON". (I dont know why I thought that but I knew I wasnt having a misscarrige it was just that I was nervous a little I aint know what to think). I started yelling for my mommy.

Mom-What you yelling like that for?

Me-Look (I showed her my underwear)

Mom-Wanna go to the hospital?

Me-No wait a while


So I went and layed down so something told me call my babyfather just in case being that he was in job corp upstate at the time I would have to call and let him no whats going on so they can send him home
or whatever. Im dailing the number to the job corp shit. And I started getting krazy pains so I started screaming. Than my mom called the ambulance. Im thinking to myself what would of happen if I was in school and being that I only got one class on fridays and the school is in Jackson Height Queens?? Dam thank god I stayed home that day. Well anyteeways I aint get no connection to my babyfather.

Well while I was in the ambulance the pains started getting worst. So thats when I realized that those shits was fucking contractions. Soon as we pulled up in front of the ambulance tears started falling down my face. I got settle in the hospital or whatever. I was acting like a baby cause
those contractions aint no dam joke. My mommy was looking at me like "you wanted this baby not deal with the pain". I guess she was getting mad cause I was screaming or whatever. But I aint give a fuck cause those shits hurted. Im laying in the hospital bed and all of sudden I had to take a doo-doo so I went and did the dam thing. It hurted everytime I walked. I kept going back to the bathroom every 10 minutes. Its was krazy. So the doctor or nurse who ever the bitch was checked to see if my water broke or something. The bitch poking me asking me do this hurt, do that hurt, so im pushing her hand back and she like stop so I kicked her (LOL) you can just go sticking your dam fingers in my coochie all hard and shit. Than she like my water broke she gotta break the rest of it. OMG and after that contractions started getting worst. I wasnt even counting how far apart they was. I just wanted it to be all over. I was getting upset cause my cell phone aint have no service in the dam hospital. (I should of known)

So my mommy had to leave me in the
room all alone to go downstairs to call people and tell them whats going on. She even called my Babyfather and still no connection. Well aleast she called his aunt and let her know.

Hours later.......
They moved me to another room which looked like it could of been a bedroom in someones house. Im looking around lik
e WOW than contractions still coming.

Time seemed to be gonig hella slow
March 24th..2007

Here go my mommy....


Mom-It dont look like you having that b
aby anytime soon so im going home and im coming back

ME- (cryinig) you leaving me

Mom-Yes im tired and its 1am

Soon as she started putting on her coat the doctors came in so they checked how far apart I was or whatever. The doctor asked me do I feel like I wanna push. Im like UGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH NO, Cause he had his hands all in me and shit. My mommy like "is she having the baby tonight??"..LoL they ignored her question. And was like imma have to have a C-section cause it dont look like imma be able to have a natural birth cause the baby might not make it. In other words im too dam small to push. LoL.

At this time my mommy was getting on my last nerves. She like "thats what she wanted". Im saying in my head I thought she was leaving me why she still hear than??..I was just aggravted shoot..Espeacilly
cause I couldnt get in contact with my dumb ass babyfather.

A hour later....

They gave me a needle in my back. Did it hurt?? Hell no it aint hurt. It easied the pain for like 20 minutes than my contractions came back. So they gave my mom a gown to put on. And they took me to the room where they give you the C-section at.
So im laying there and they gave me some s
hit but the shit had me talking out my head. So after they cut me open took the baby out. I started crying not cause of pain cause of the shit they gave me had me going krazy. Im like "i want my baby" all I hear is my mommies voice saying "look " but my eye site was blurry so I couldnt see nothing.

Than they took me to the recovery room. The doctor like "your mother is going home". Im like nooooooooooooooooooo. LOL She like" y
ou need some rest". So at this time my eye site wasnt blurry but I was still going krazy.
I looked at the doctor like she was krazy..
..

Me-you pregnant?

Doctor-Yes

Me-WOOOOW Did you cut me open?

Doctor-Yes I helped


After that I aint have no words. I just started thinking in my head like ewwwwwwwww how can she look at me cut all open and not throw up being that she pregnant.

**By the way Quan was born at 4:31am 7punds 9ounces** Here are some pictures of him when he was first born. Awww "Tears"


When I woke up they brought him right to me and I was so excited I just couldnt put him down after that. I was feinging. They took us to another room which we had to share with some loud ass lady. OMG she stayed on the dam phone talking about nothing at all. Like her pregnancy went so great. I was hating cause I was still in pain from the staples they had put in me. I couldnt even go to the bathroom like I wanted to they had a tube up my dam coochie so yea thats pretty much how I used the bathroom. EWWW nasty right?? I know.

My mommy arrived. DAM here she go. I knew she was gon brag about how she held him fisrt like I cared LoL well I did care. Im saying to myself if she get on my nerves today with her excited ass imma te
ll her to go HOME!!!...

HMMMM around 7 or 8 that night my babyfather shows up with his family. OH NO. Why he so dam late like he had to come with them and couldnt come early???. Well anteeways he acted like he was scared to hold Quan maybe cause he didnt know how LoL. But its wasnt hard for him to learn.

Hahha so out of nowhere im saying to myself "I gotta pee" . (I have forgot the tube was in me for a minute so I started pee'n) loL. And my babyfather like well go pee DUH. Im like I am pee'n he looking at me like huh?? than he saw the container on side of the bed and said ewww and moved away from me...LMAOOOOOO that was so funni.

Like hour later his family left and so did my mom thank god. LoL And it was just me, Quan and my babyfather. So we talking or whatever. Babyfather seemed mad happy he just couldnt stop touching Quan. Im like GESH. He like "I had a feeling you was having him"
.................................................

Having Daquan was the happiest day of my life I would never forget the first time I saw him. We shared a bond in our eyes that "we will always be together". And up until this day. ITS TRUE.

I can go on about the days I spent in the hospital for 8 days. YUp 8 days cause I kept catching fevers. I dont know how though. Haha I was gon fuck my babyfather up in the dam hospital. YUP with staples in my belly I was gon choke his ass but instead I just kicked him in his leg. Cause he was getting stupid.

Well anteeways
here is a picture of me and Quan...finally we had our own room in the hospital and aint have to share it with a loud ass lady anymore. LoL Dam I looked a hawt mess in the picture and I had a perm when I went in the hospital. LOL


Since that day Quan was born THATS WHEN I REALIZED MY LIFE WAS HEADING FOR A CHANGE. I WAS SO EXCITED ALL I COULD SAY WAS THANK YOU GOD FOR THE MOST WONDERFUL GIFT.WHEN I WAS PREGNANT PEOPLE WAS LIKE'' ARE YOU SURE YOU READY FOR A BABY'',''ITS HARD'' AND I USE TO SAY I KNOW WHAT IM DOING IMMA BE A GREAT MOTHER AND LOOK NOW IM BEIN MORE THAN A GREAT MOTHER IM BEING A WONDERFUL MOTHER.I LOVE EVERY MOMMENT OF IT. I LOVE CHANGING HIS PAMPERS BECUZ HE JUST BE LAUGHIN SO HARD IT MAKES ME HAPPY, AND I BE LAUGHIN WITH HIM TOO.AT FIRST I USE TO BE LIKE EWWWW CUZ HIS SHIT NO JOKE when hw shit...LOL.AS YOU CAN SEE I LOVE MY SON so MUCH, AND HE IS MY MOST MOTIVATION TO KEEP LIVING MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST.I LOVE HIM MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF. HE MEAN SO MUCH TO ME. HIS SMILE BRIGHTENS UP MY DAY.HE IS THE ONE WHO MAKES ME HAPPY WHEN IM SAD.I WILL ALWAYS BE BY HIS SIDE NO MATTER WHAT.I AM GOING TO MAKE SURE THAT HE GETS EVERYTHING HE NEEDS. I WILL ALWAYS BE A WONDERFUL MOTHER TO HIM.I THANK GOD FOR HIM EVERY DAY.

**I love being a mommy**

Long ass blog right??? lol sorry about that....

15 comments:

Melody.Darlene said...

omg too precious!!

A.M. said...

aww..my emotions changed like ten times through this post. First my toes got that "grossed out feeling" lol...then thee, "aww how precious, she's a mommy."

you're blessed to have him :)

A Go Bytch said...

Thanks for showing my spot some love!

Go B.

Danielle said...

Aww, I'm sure it's a great experience being a new mom.

Super Woman said...

I wish i could be so high i dont feel nothing, so high im sleep when i have the baby. I wanna be HIGH out of this worllldddd, when i have a baby if i have a baby. I want one but im scared and this made me even more scared LOL

Vanitee said...

THATS A REAL EMOTION PACKED POST - I LIKES IT
AND YA SON.. DAMN, HE GONE BE A SERIOUS HEARTBREAKER, HE'S BEAUTIFUL
AND IM SURE YOU'RE AN AMAZING MOM
ENJOY IT - NEXT TING YA KNOW HE'LL BE 18 TRUST ME!! LOL
P.S 1ST TIME TO YA BLOG
ITS COOL!!
V

Dope Fiend said...

that is so freakin cute! lol i remember wen mi god daughter was born, that was an amazing day. i can only IMAGINE half of what you felt to be a new mummy!


i wnt 2 b a mummy dammit!!!!

Ms. Behaving said...

It WAS long [LOL] but beautiful just the same!! :-)

Lil Honey B said...

Awww...your baby was precious when he was born. My son's birth was not nearly as hard, I was lucky ; )

(vixenchick) said...

awww....thats so cute!

i feel the same way about my neices and my nephew.

xoxo

vixen

Teems said...

Yea that was long. I look forward to that special experience though....eh 2 years from now.

J.E.W.E.L.S said...

awww...he's so cute=)

Casual Butterfly said...

Just got on here & ran across your blog.

Awww...I almost caught a tear reading that. Brought back some memories.

King Bomani said...

awww thats a once in a lifetime experience and it sounded so painful but hey it's all worth it now the question is....u gonna have anymore children?? lol

Daviid said...

I JUST WANNA SAY CONGRADULATION..ON YOUR NEW BORN BABY...AND STAY AS A GOOD PROUD MOTHER YOU ARE..I LOVE YOU BLOGS