EVERYTHING THAT RUNS THROUGH MY MIND AND MOSTLY MY EVERY DAY LIFE

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Bored day

TOOK ME LIKE 3O MINUTES TO THINK IF I SHOULD TYPE A BLOG OR NOT. SHIT HALF THE TIME I DONT BE KNOWING WHAT TO SAY BUT OH WELL RIGHT? LOL. ALL DAY I BEEN THINKING ABOUT MY MAN CHRIS. HE'S LOCKED UP HOPEFULLY HE COMES HOME SOON. DAYS GOING BY AND IM KINDA GETTING SAD BUT IMMA BE JUST FINE AND I KNOWS THIS. BEING ALONE IS ALL PLAYED OUT. FOR REAL THOUGH ITS WHACK WAKING UP ALONE SOMETIMES. ''SAD FACE''.

WELL ME AND CHRIS GOT TOGETHER WHILE HE WAS IN PRISON 7-22-08 JUST SO YALL KNOW. LONG STORY ON HOW THAT SHIT HAPPEN. TO KINDA MAKE IT SHORT WE USE TO GO TOGETHER IN OCT OF 2002..WAY BACK RIGHT?? BUT SHIT AINT WORK OUT BACK THAN. SO WE JUST GETTING BACK TOGETHER. KRAZY RIGHT? I WENT AND VISITED HIM ON SEPT 20TH. IT WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE EVEN THOUGH I HAD TO VISIT HIM IN PRISON [I HATE THOSE DAM PALCES] . HOPEFULLY I GO SEE HIM THIS WEEKEND. BUT ANTEEWAYS. AM I IN LOVE? YES I AM IN LOVE MAY SOUND STUPID BUT THATS WHAT I FEEL. HE CALLS ME EVERY DAY ALMOST FIVE TIMES A DAY OR MAY MORE. I KNOW FOR A FACT THIS DUDE LOVES AND IS IN LOVE WITH ME NOT JUST CAUSE HE SAY IT BUT BECAUSE I CAN FEEL IT. WHEN I WENT AND SENT HIM HE WAS SO HAPPY I FELT IT WHEN HE HUGGED ME.

PEOPLE TELLING ME I SHOULDNT FALL SO FAR DEEP CAUSE HE MIGHT GET OUT OF PRISON AND FORGET ABOUT ME. MY MOM EVEN SAID THAT. SO I SAY IF THATS WHAT HE DO WHICH I BELIEVE HE WONT. THIS MIGHT SOUND STUPID BUT...IF HE IS JUST USING ME JUST SO I CAN RIDE WITH HIM UNTIL HE GET HOME OR WHATEVER AND THAN FORGET ABOUT ME THAN THATS ON HIM BECAUSE I AINT GON LET ONE NIGGAH SPOIL IT FOR THE REST JUST WILL HAVE TO MOVE ON FEEL ME?. IM NOT GON BE CRYING. CAUSE I BEEN THROUGH ALOT OF SHIT AND GOT OVER IT .IMMA STRONG WOMAN.

IN MY HEART I FEEL THAT HE WONT HURT ME. I TRUST HIM. AND I NEVER TRUSTED ANYBODY THAT MUCH LIKE I TRUST THIS DUDE. HE PROMISED TO NOT HURT ME BUT THATS NOT WHY IM TRUSTING HIM. IM TRUSTING HIM CAUSE THATS WHAT MY HEART TELLING ME TO DO. I ALWAYS FOLLOW MY HEART. NOW WHEN MY HEART FEELS LIKE IT SHOULDNT TRUST OH BELIEVE ME I WILL STOP TRUSTING THIS DUDE. HE IS SO SWEET HE EVEN ASK TO SPEAK TO MY SON WHEN HE CALLS. [HE KNOWS THE DEAL WITH ME AND MY BABYFATHER TOO AND HE AINT FEELING THAT]. HE SAID HE WOULDNT MIND BEING QUAN STEPFATHER THOUGHT. THATS SWEET GLAD HE ACCEPTS MY SON. HE SAID HE LOVES QUAN ALSO AND HE HAVENT EVEN SEEN THE BAD ASS BOY YET LOL. HE TOLD ME THAT ANYTHING THAT HAS TO DO WITH ME ITS KOOL CAUSE HE LOVE ME DEEPLY AND IMMA BE HIS WIFE SOME DAY. ISNT THAT SWEET?


I DONT WANT THIS DUDE TO DO FOR MY SON WHEN HE COMES HOME CAUSE IT AINT HIS CHILD. NOW IF HE DOES WHICH HE SAID HE WAS GON TAKE CARE OF ME AND QUAN. THAN I WOULD BE THANKFUL BUT I WOULDNT GO TO HIM WHEN MY SON NEEDS SOMETHING. FEEL ME? GET WHAT IM SAYING. "I DONT DEPEND ON NOBODY". THAT JUST THE WAY I AM. LIKE TO BE "MISS INDEPENDENT" THATS ALL. BUT I WOULDNT MIND A LIL HELP EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE THOUGH.

ANTEEWAYS ENOUGH TALKING ABOUT MY LOVE LIFE SOON TO BE MARRIED..LOL

WELL TODAY I HAD A LONG ASS DAY. MY SON WAS HELLA LATE FOR DAYCARE THANKX TO MY ASS WAKING UP LATE BUT HE STILL WENT SO THAT SHOULD BE ALL THAT MATTERS. "BETTER LATE THAN NEVER" RIGHT??. THAN AFTER TAKING HIM DAYCARE I CAME HOME AND THATS WHEN THE "BOREDOM" STARTED KICKING IN SHIT WAS I BORED. SO OUT OF KNOW WHERE MY FRIEND TEXTS ME. DAM WHATS HIS NAME??? I THINK ITS "JAY". WELL HIS ASS TELLS ME HE COMING AROUND MY WAY SO IM THINKING TO MYSELF "EWWW I DONT WANNA SEE THIS DUDE". AND NOT NOT EVEN UGLY. JUST ONE OF THOSE DAYS WHERE YOU DONT WANT TO SEE NOBODY. SO I TEXT HIM OKAY KOOL. BEING THAT I AINT WANNA BE IN THE HOUSE AND HE HAS A CAR.

SO I HAD TO TELL HIM MY STREET ADDRESS NOT THE NUMBERS THOUGH HE DONT NEED TO KNOW THE NUMBERS. SURPRISE HE KNOW HOW GET OUT HERE IM ASSUMING HE BE OUT HERE ALOT OR MAYBE HE DONT MAYBE HE GOT ONE OF THOSE DIRECTIONS SHITS IN HIS CAR. FORGOT THE NAME OF IT!!

BUT ANTEEWAYS..............................................

20 MINUTES LATER HE TEXTS ME THAT HES OUTSIDE. SO I GET OUTSIDE WALKING TO HIM IN HIS CAR SO WHOLE TIME WALKING TO HIS CAR IT SEEM SO LONG SO IM THINKING TO MYSELF THIS GON BE MY SECOND TIME SEEING THIS DUDE JAY AND I LOOK A KRAZY KINDA MESS {JUST ONE OF THOSE DAYS} OH WHAT THE HELL WHO CARES I DONT CAUSE HE AINT MY MAN AND NEVER WILL BE CAUSE I GOT A MAN AND HE BETTER NOT ASK ANY QUESTIONS.

IN THE CAR NOW. OH SHIT HERE GOES THE QUESTIONS. THINK I WAS MOODY CAUSE ITS THAT TIME OF THE MONTH IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN...

HIM-CAN I GET A HUG?

WHAT THE FUCK HE WANT A HUG FOR?? NOW YOU KNOW I AINT GIVE HIS ASS NO HUG

ME-NAW
HIM-DAM ITS MAD HAWT OUT HERE I THOUGHT THE COPS WAS GON PULL ME OVER SO MANY OF THEM
ME-WHAT YOU SCARED?
HIM-NO JUST SAYING
ME-OKAY RETARD
HIM-WHY I GOTTA BE A RETARED?
ME-CAUSE YOU WANNA SEE PEOPLE EARLY IN THE MORNING
HIM-WHAT I CANT SEE YOU?? YOU GOT OUT?

HOW THE HELL HE GON ASK TWO QUESTIONS AT ONCE. WTF SLOW DOWN

ME-YEAH I GO OUT SOMETIMES

LOL SEE FOR HIM BEING FAST I ONLY ANSWERED ONE OF HIS QUESTIONS

HIM-WHAT HAPPEN TO THOSE FLICKS YOU WAS SUPPOSE TO SEND ME?

I DO NOT RECALL TELLING THIS DAM DUDE I WAS GON SEND HIM PICTURES SO IM GUESSING THAT WAS HIS WAY OF ASKING CAN I SEND HIM A PICTURE. SO I SENT ONE

ME-WOW WHEN I SAID THIS?
HIM-YOU SAID IT
ME-OKAY RIIIGHT I JUST SENT ONE JUST NOW DID YOU GET IT?
HIM-NO I AINT GET IT LET ME SEE YOU SENT FOLDER

SINCE HE PROBALLII THOUGHT I WAS LYING I SHOWED HIM

ME-LOOK FOOL
HIM-WOW I DONT EVEN GOT A NAME IN YOUR PHONE THATS MESSED UP
ME-I KNOW YOUR NUMBER BY HEART SO NO NEED FOR A NAME

I JUST G'eD HIM KNOWING DAM WELL I DONT KNOW HIS NUMBER BY A HEART. SO I STORED HIS NUMBER. LOL I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY I NEVER STORED HIS NUMBER TO BEGIN WITH. MAYBE CAUSE WHEN HE BAGGED ME OR WHATEVER I JUST GAVE HIM MY NUMBER AND KEPT IT MOVING LOL THAN HE TEXTED ME RIGHT AWAY. AND BEIN THAT I NEVER DELETE CERTAIN TEXT HIS NEVER GOT DELETED SO THATS HOW I KINDA KNOW ITS HIM WHEN HE TEXT ME AND PLUS HE THE ONLY ONE WHO TEXT ME WITH NO NAME....

BUT ANTEEWAYS HIS CAR IS HELLA FLY AND PRETTY AND ITS UP TO DATE 2008 YESSSIR BUT I JUST FORGOT THE NAME OF IT. OH YEAH HE KUTE TOO. BUT I HAVE A MAN SO I DONT CARE FOR HIS ASS. AND PLUS HE BORES ME EVEN MORE.

KRAZY THING IS HE STILL HASNT GOT MY PICTURE THAT I SENT WHEN I WAS IN HIS CAR. OH WRLL THAT SUCKS TO BE HIM RIGHT? CAUSE I AINT SENDING IT AGAIN. I DONT THINK I WANNA SEE DUDE AGAIN WELL IM NOT SURE CAUSE HE KOOL BUT HE JUST SEEM LIKE A BORING TYPE. SITTING IN HIS CAR WAS JUST A COMPLETE WASTE OF MY TIME CAUSE ALL WE DID WAS SIT IN HIS CAR AND HE ASEKD QUESTIONS NOT THAT I WANTED MORE JUST SAYING HE COULD OF DROVE SOMEWHERE OR SOMETHING. WE WAS BETTER OFF TEXTING AND LEAVING IT LIKE THAT. SERIOUSLY THOUGH. CAUSE DUDE SEEM HELLA LAME FOR SOME WEIRD REASON.

SO AFTER SEE THAT LAME DUDE JAY LOL. I WENT UPSTAIRS OR WHATEVER. SO HOUR LATER IM THINKING TO MYSELF "JAY SAID HE WAS GOING TO WORK BUT I NEVER ASKED HIM WHERE HE WORK". SO I TEXTED HIM.

ME-WHERE YOU WORK AT?
HIM-HAVE TO TELL YOU IN PERSON WHEN I SEE YOU 2M
ME-YEAH UH HUH

AFTER THAT I STOPPED TEXTING HIM

HIM-IM SERIOUS ITS HARD TO EXPLAIN SO I HAVE TO TELL YOU FACE TO FACE

STILL AINT TEXT HIM BACK AFTER THAT LAST TEXT FROM HIM. CAUSE WHATS SO HARD TO EXPLAIN ABOUT WHERE YOU WORK AT? I DONT GET IT. I SHOULD OF TEXTED HIM BACK BUT I CHOOSE NOT TO. JUST WAIT TIL HE SAYS HE'S "DOWN STAIRS" AGAIN WHICH MIGHT BE 2M WHO KNOWS. CAUSE I DAM SURE WANNA KNOW WHERE HE WORK. AND THIS TIME IMMA MAKE SURE HE TAKES ME FOR A RIDE IN THAT PRETTY ASS CAR. HE JUST BETTER NOT STOP BY NO STORE AND LEAVE ME IN THE CAR CAUSE I MIGHT DRIVE OFF. SIKE NAW CAUSE I CANT EVEN DRIVE LOL. SAD RIGHT? NOR DO I HAVE A PERMIT OR LISCENSE. GOTTA SOLVE THOSE PROBLEMS ASAP.

WELL THATS IS FOR THIS BLOG






4 comments:

Nellz said...

i love this....made me want to read moree!! so buddy in prison...I would also tell ya bcareful bc he is alone in prison we wanna see how he is on the outside if he still wants u the same way..and i wish u the best with that....and ur lil man why u making him late for school...smhhhhhhhhhhh and yooooooooooooooooooo u had me laughin reading the part where u was in teh car with buddy...ur soo funny yo..smh and if u dont care for him dont use him and hurt his damn feelings ladi!!!! well see ya next post!! xoxoxoxoxo

Super Woman said...

I Agree with Nellz, i dont trust him and i dont know him but what i feel doesnt matter because thats you and your situation. But i will tell you what a dude close to me did. He was all wifed up while in jail the girl went to see him every dammn weekend and then when he got out he TRIED to ACT like he cared for her but really was just using her and eventually went on to have a baby with another girl who he lives with. This guy happens to be my brother, i never thought he would ever disrespect women BUT he did despite being raised better than that. Of course he's happy to see you. HE'S In Jail. But all In All i hope EVERYTHING works out for the better.

FlyyGurl said...

All I got to say is, girl BE CAREFUL! guard your heart as well as your body! I know for one thing that there is NOTHING better than a black man...but sometimes we can love our black men more than we love ourselves...But Do You girl..and Im digging these cliff hangers, too!lol

Anonymous said...

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