EVERYTHING THAT RUNS THROUGH MY MIND AND MOSTLY MY EVERY DAY LIFE

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Interesting/Good Day

TODAY WAS A INTERESTING/GOOD DAY. MY SON DROVE ME KRAZY LIKE ALWAYS LOL. I TALKED TO MY BOSS AT MY OLD JOB(KEVINS RESTURANT). HE WAS CLAIMING HE WAS TRYNA CALL ME. WHICH I KNOW IS A DAWN LIE BUT WHATEVER OR MAYBE HE WAS TRYING TO CALL WHO KNOWS. WELL I WENT OVER TO HIM AT THE JOB TODAY AND HE TELLS ME HE NEEDS MY HELP. MEANING HE WANT ME TO COME BACK TO WORK SO IM LIKE I GUESS THATS KOOL. SO I WILL START WORKING BACK THERE ON NEW YEARS EVE. YAY ME...YEAH I KNOW YALL LIKE NEW YEARS EVE. THATS WHAT IM SAYING BUT ITS KOOL TO ME.

MOVING ON....

I HAD A INTERESTING CONVO ON AIM WITH MY BABYFATHER TODAY. HE REALLY SHOCKED ME AND KINDA TOUCHED MY HEART WITH THE SHIT HE WAS SAYING. OKAY OKAY HE DID HAVE ME IN SOME TEARS. WELL I STARTED THE CONVO OFF CAUSE I WAS JUST SITTING THERE THINKING ON WHY I WAS MEAN TO HIM AFTER ME AND HIM HAD BROKE UP. SO YOU KNOW ME I HIT HIM UP....

ME: I never use to be this nice to u
ME: I was just thinking
My BabyFather: abt..........
ME: Maybe I was afraid I wasnt gon be ur babymother nomore thats proballii y I was so dam mean
My BabyFather: how u have my son how manii tymez i have 2 tell u dat
My BabyFather: i juss needed u 2 get dat thru ur head
ME: I know that....
ME: But sometimes I just couldnt get it in my head
ME: Idk y
----------------------------------------- 1:42 pm -----------------------------------------
ME: I like when we not in a relationship. Thats y I accepted shaneequa as ur gf & started being nice
My BabyFather: lol u serious
ME: Lol
ME: Yesssir
ME: im serious abt everything I say
ME: I didnt have to accept her if I aint want too..but its like she no harm so y should I hate her.
ME: I was happy for ya love life..thats y I didnt get mad when I found out abt the tattoo it was stupid but lol that wat happens when u in love

----------------------------------------- 1:49 pm -----------------------------------------
My BabyFather: yeah i guess
My BabyFather: and i neva wanna tell u who im wit cuz i dont want u 2 feel bad
My BabyFather: n da inside
My BabyFather: cuz i still luv u
ME: Yea I learned that...
My BabyFather: u had my first child
My BabyFather: and dats neva gonna change even wen we fight
My BabyFather: i still have da same luv i did wen we first started
ME: I know u still love me but shit happens & its a reason we broke up
ME: Im not mad at u
My BabyFather: u have any problem wit a nigga u tell me and i got u
My BabyFather: u know dat
My BabyFather: ik

ME: Yea
ME: I know u got me
My BabyFather: and 2 tell u da truth i cant put no gurl b4 u


OKAY IMMA STOP THERE WITH THAT CONVO....I WASNT EVEN GON BLOG ABOUT THIS BUT I JUST HAD TO CAUSE THIS IS THE DEEPEST CONVERSATION I EVER HAD WITH HIM(WELL TO ME ITS DEEP). YES I WAS IN TEARS WHEN HE SAID HE STILL LOVE ME. I ALWAYS KNEW THAT BUT TO HEAR IT COME FROM HIM REALLY TOUCHED MY HEART. I THINK WE BROKE UP ONLY FOR THE GOOD SO WE BOTH CAN MOVE ON AND NOT FIGHT/ARGUE ALL THE TIME. YEAH WE HAVE ARGUEMENTS ONCE IN A WHILE BUT NOT LIKE WE USE TOO. CAUSE BEFORE WE USE TO ARGUE EVERY GOT DAM DAY ESPECAILLY WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER. MY BABYFATHER HAS CHANGED ALOT AND IM GLAD HE DID, CAUSE IF HE WOULD OF STILL BEEN THAT "IMMATURE DUDE" THIS COMING 2009 I WOULD OF LOST MY DAM MIND FOR REAL.

OH JUST IN CASE YALL ASK ....**YES HE REALLY GOT HIS GIRL NAME TATTED ON HIM**AND HE KNOWS THAT WAS A STUPID KRAZI MOVE TOO BUT HEY THATS HIS BODY HE CAN DO WHATEVER HE PLEASE TO IT . I CANT TRIP. IM NOT EVEN HATTING . IM REALLY HAPPY FOR HIM , FOR REAL I AM. THAT SOUND WEIRD RIGHT? CAUSE I USE TO REALLY HAVE SO MUCH HATE ON MY BABYFATHER THAT I COULDNT YELL AT HIM WITHOUT CRYING. BUT I HAVE CHANGED ALOT AND ONLY FOR THE BETTER. I CANT BE MAD AT THE PERSON "WHO IS THE FATHER OF MY FIRST SON" FOREVER. LIFE GOES ON AND ITS TOO DAM SHORT TO HOLD GRUDGES AGAINST PEOPLE FOR SO LONG CAUSE ONE DAY YOU CAN WAKE UP AND THAT PERSON CAN BE COMPLETELY GONE (LIKE DEAD OR FAR AWAY) AND THAN YOU WILL FEEL REALLY SORRY THAT YOU WAS EVEN MAD AT THE PERSON.

SO LIVE AND LOVE YOUR LIFE WITH NO REGRETS. PARTY HARD AND ALL THAT SHIT!!! LOL CAUSE YOU ONLY GET ONE LIFE SO WHY NOT LIVE IT UP?


P.S
-LOL AGAIN JUST IN CASE YALL WAS WONDER "WELL DO HE HAVE OUR SON NAME TATTED ON HIM?" YES HE HAS OUR SON NAME TATTED ON HIM....AND YES HE GOT OUR SON NAME WAY BEFORE HE GOT HER NAME ON HIM...!!!

IM OUT OFF TO READ SOME OF YALL BLOGS SMOOCHES!!!

7 comments:

Reggie said...

He makes me wanna dropkick my computer!!!:(

Yay for my working girls...not the ones on the corners!!!:)

NEW CHAPTER 1.2 & 1.3 "Umbrella" IS UP!!!:)
What are you waiting for?!?
Go read at http://www.dollhousecircus.blogspot.com

Teems said...

I know many mother/fathers that had that kind of moment too. Its good to know the love is there but may be akward down the line when you feel like they arent living up to their word of putting you first when the new family comes around.

Even though yall have moved on thats a conversation the other girl would NOT want to see/hear. The realization that you two have this special bond...a bond she will NEVER have...no matter how hard she tries.

CONGRATS on the employment. Im still pushing for it myself. My time will come...

iM.R0Ni said...

damn cakin via aim lol. i feelz lol.

Miss Definitely Maybe said...

im happy for your son coz if you and his daddy get along it will make life a whole lot happier for him

JuiicyKisz said...

you and your son are both lucky. despite you and your baby's father's difference you both seem to work things out and thats really good. glad you two have a good understanding.

*-Ms. Naomie-* said...

you're lucky. you're son is lucky.
i'm trying to get to this stage w/my BD too, hopefully sooner than later

yay on the job...i'm tryna get here too! lol

thanks for stopping by. i'll def. be back b/c it seems we may have a lot in common [1st thing: cute sons!]

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-REMUL