Okay I Guess

YEA I GUESS IM OKAY. JUST TRYNA STAY STRONG BUT ITS HARD. I CANT EVEN EXPLAN HOW I FEEL. MY MIND JUST ALL FUCKED UP.

MY BABII CUZZIN FUNERAL ON FRIDAY. I ALREADY KNOW IMMA TAKE IT REAL HARD. NOT CRYING IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME AT FUNERALS NO MATTER HOW HARD I SQUEEZE MY EYES SO THE TEARS WONT COME OUT, THAT SHIT DOESNT WORK. ITS LIKE I LOST A BABII BUT IT WASNT MINE BUT I CAN FEEL THE PAIN THAT THE PARENTS ARE GOING THROUGH. ITS SO SAD. DAM I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. EVERYTHING SEEM SO FUCKED UP.

I WANTED TO HAVE A SPECIAL BOND WITH MY BABII CUZZIN . FOR REAL I WANTED TO BE THAT BIG CUZZIN WHERE HE CAN COME TO ME ABOUT ANYTHING I MEAN ANYTHING DOESNT MATTER WHAT IT IS. YES I WOULD OF BEEN THERE FOR HIM THROUGH EVERYTHING. BEEN ON HIS SIDE WHETHER HE WAS RIGHT OR WRONG. I WOULD OF HAD HIS BACK.

DAM I THOUGHT MY LIL MAN WAS GON REALLY HAVE SOMEBODY TO RUN AROUND WITH AND SHIT. YA KNOW DRIVE ME KRAZII. THEY COULD OF HAD SLEEP OVERS AND EVERYTHING. I WOULD OF TOOK MY BABII CUZZIN EVERYWHERE ME AND MY LIL MAN WENT. OMG THIS IS REALLY KILLING MY HEART LIKE DEAD ASS. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO.

I LOVE KIDS THATS WHY THIS IS BREAKING MY HEART SO MUCH!!!!

WELL IMMA STOP HERE MAYBE POST ANTHER POST LATER OR W/E