IM CRAZY

Well I must admit I am crazy. That's only because push me to that level. But for some reason people always seem to call me crazy and they don't have a reason for it. Don't call me crazy if you don't have a reason for it. I'm just saying if you going to call somebody something you got to know why you calling them that. Don't just say stuff to say it. 

Sometimes I get called crazy when I keep it real with people. Seriously how can I be crazy for keeping it real ? I don't understand. Like I said I am crazy but if some shit didn't happen I wouldn't have to get crazy, you feel me? 

 

BEEN GOING THROUGH IT

Who missed me? Shit I miss writing up here so I had to come back. For the last couple of months I been going through it. Too much that I don't even know where I should start shit I just might not end. Tears to drama EVERYTHING. Well I'm living good and still remain a great mother to Daqaun,a college student and the fiance to Christoper. I even had a job but that didn't work out but its kool something else will come right? 


So where should I start telling what happen over the months. Summer was whack, sorry I only went to the beach once out of the whole summer because me and sand don't get a along feel me? . I colored my hair =). My son got bigger and he's a very smart lil man and I love him to death.


Now to the juicy part I guess

I wanna smack this one bitch cause of my friends , smh I know my friend be going back telling this bitch shit cause the bitch always got something smart to say in her facebook status about me and I know she talks my twitter too.But being the adult I am I keep my kool and let her say whatever she want long as the shit STAYS on her page and don't comes to mine cause my words can hurt people. Lol but I still wanna smack her.


Like every year I get a new reason to why I hate females, they fake and full of drama believe it or not. But its the truth.




and Why people think they perfect and better then others? 
You know what I tell those people ? "you ain't perfect cause nobody is"
Then I hate the type of people that wanna talk down on you and shit. That's one thing I take serious don't talk down on me. 






Oh yeah lets not talk about how the pregnant females this season think they better and got it all cause they have a baby on the way and half of them on they second baby and they be the main ones talking down on others. They need to STOP IT NOW. Having your second child and you don't have YOUR OWN EVERYTHING(meaning you ain't living on your own) does not mean you grown. GET YOUR OWN then your grown! Yup I have my ONE son who's 3 and I'm working on getting my own everything so that's why I will remain with only him until then, I know better. I mean if you ain't down talking others as if you perfect then its okay if you on your second child but don't think your shit don't stink sweetie. I'm just keeping it real that's all bloggers cause I be hearing the way these females be talking and I be like "i could of sworn she lived with her parents but yet talking down on others". Sorry I don't think its kool at all.
  

Oh yeah whats with this question "Toya why you don't get welfare? I got it"......like what the fuck don't ask me no shit like that but I will answer it. And my answer is because #1 they too dam nosey #2 it ain't my style #3 I rather go and find me a job #4 they make you go through mad stuff to get a job with their help & soon as you get thejob they cut you off #5 its useless to me. 




What else should I talk about?




My son daycare closed down (thankx to the mayor) so he on the waiting list for another one. But in March he will be turning 4 and will be starting Pre-K . Yup my baby is growing up. It amazing how fast he grown up. I miss when he was a baby ! 








Well I guess this is it for this blog cause im tired of typing ! lol until next time DUCES!

A POEM

The sky is blue, The clouds is crying, The man above is calling a name, He's trying to take away their pain, He need them near, Distance between them is making it hard for him to cure the pain, He sees the pain is getting worst day by day, He will soon have another helper with him. 

 

 

-Written by Me =) 

 

 

FOR THE SINGLE MOTHERS

(1st off excuse my langauge as I express myself here) As I was walking home "Baby Mama" was playing on my ipod & thoughts flowed thru my mind. I'm the best mother ever & can't nobody tell me nothing. For 3 years I had this shit down packed and I'm doing good. Don't yall agree? I mean my son father did for him like 30% since he was born but that dnt even matter cuz the problem is that he dont come around like he suppose too. Hopefully all that change. "A man has to be a man on his own" & if he wanna bullshit then he should know he missing out. To all the mothers that's going thru what I'm going thru don't even sweat it cuz this aint killing us its making us stronger. Its hard for me not to kry as I express myself but hey it is what it is right?. Aint gon front I'm tired of my son father shit but he his own person and if that mean he aint NEVER gon do what he suppose then that's on him, he will learn tho. NO MATTER what imma always be my son mother & father anyways. He got everything he want & need. So again MOTHERS keep doing what you doing cuz your doing great. & to the MOTHERS that aint letting these FATHERS see their child cuz they don't wanna be with you or you just stupid, stop that shit right now cuz it aint kool. I love my son & I will give him my last. Even though I always wonder "How can a boy be a man when he only getting fed from a woman hand" I got it now cause I know with my heart my son will be a good man.

My heart

He's a very smart and handsome little boy, yessssirr thats my 3 year old baby boy and I love him so much!

HE'S 3 NOW!

Yes on March 24th , my baby turned the big 3 and I still can't believe it. Time flying by like its being chased it. Man I wish time can slow down but that will never happened. I could of sworn I just had him yesterday. This is amazing. He's a very handsome and smart 3 year old boy. I love him with no limit to that.

MARCH UPDATE

HEYYYYYYYYYYYYY YES IM STILL HERE AND NOT GOING ANYWHERE ......

WELL MY SON WILL BE TURNING THE BIG 3 THIS MONTH ON THE 24TH , I MIGHT KRY LOL. IF YOU AINT KNOW HE'S A BAD ASS LOL..AINT ALL BOYS BAD? BETTER YET ALL KIDS IS BAD ! I CAN'T BELIEVE HE'S TURNING 3 ALREADY WHEN IT FELT LIKE I JUST HAD HIM YESTERDAY. BUT NO I REALLY HAD HIM 3 YEARS GO WOW! I MEAN TIME IS REALLY SLIPPING AWAY AND DOESNT WAIT FOR ANYBODY. 

I LOVE MY SON DAQUAN AND IM SO HAPPY HE'S IN MY LIFE. WITHOUT HIM I WOULDN'T BE MYSELF. THERE IS NO LIMIT TO HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS KID. I KNOW WITH MY HEART HE LOVES ME MORE THEN ANYBODY ELSE DOES.

WE WAS AT A BDAY PARTY AND MY HOMEGIRL TOOK THIS PIC AND HE AINT EVEN KNOW...LIKE EWWWWW!! 

DO HE LOOK OLDER THEN 3?

BGC

Who watches Bad Girls Club every Tuesday at 10pm? I do! Those girls be bugging out. 

Annie- I still don't know why she on the show lol, she always hiding some where.

Portia- She need to come back on the show.

Kendra- She just too much for her own good, she be off the hook.

Flo- I think she likes Kendra and she be thinking she the MOTHER.

Kate- She's just KATE, I guess


Amber- Why did she find her boyfriend at? LoL.


Natalie- She likes attention and everything must be about her. 




All these females gon end up fighting each other so I don't even know why they try to be kool with one another!

TWITTER

WHY IS IT SO ADDICTIVE? 

I TWEETED 51,198 TIMES ALREADY, IM TOO ADDICTED LOL! 
THINK I NEED REHAB! =(




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Feb 1st

All the shit I go through I would of thought I could be up to like my 300th post by now but I'm not. Yeah sometimes I just can't seem to put my thoughts down in a post. My mind be going crazy. It be all over the place. Well its MONDAY and this day seems like the slowest day in the week. I guess cause its the beginning of the week right? Well hope this week goes by cause I mostly like FRIDAY better than any other days. 

Who saw the Grammy's last night? I did! 

Beyonce- She already know she the shit & I loved her performance
 Mary J Blige - She the truth!
Lady Gaga- Weirdo and she scares me lol. But thats good she got her VERY OWN style. Never saw anybody dress the way she does!
Wayne- When he gon cut his dreads? & He needed to get rid of the flag out his pocket!
Drake- He remind me of a teddy bear lol I don't know why though
Taylor Swift- .......really don't know what to say about cause I never listened to her music and I just started knowing who she was cause of Kanye West!
Rihanna - Why was her face like that during the MJ Tribute? 
Eminem - He raps so fast!
Usher- Voice still the same !
MJ Tribute - Was very nice, it should of been longer though & I wish I had some 3D glasses though =( !
Pink - I forgot about her & her performance was good too. 
Jay Z- I love his walk!



This is until next post!










 

Happy New Years !

Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy its a New Year as yall can see. Aint nothing really changed me, Im still me and thats all I can be. Hopefully this year be a good year. Cause 2009 wasnt good at all. Lost loved ones (Rest In Peace to them). I really wished they could of made it to this year and so on. Life really is short and its nothing nobody can do about it. 


Sooooooo  what yall got planned for this year? . 

< ------Wait what yall think of this pic?

 Well im currently back in College been going since November. Yes I like it And imma finish it. Not letting anything get in my way at all ! All I need is another Job. The one I had was Trash! Who wants to work once a week? not me!!! 

Hmm Really dont have much to say in this post, lol Oh I got a Blackberry now , its kool for now (I miss my sk tho). lol !