EVERYTHING THAT RUNS THROUGH MY MIND AND MOSTLY MY EVERY DAY LIFE

Sunday, December 27, 2009

The year almost over!

THE YEAR IS ALMOST OVER, CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? I CANT. TIME JUST GO BY TO DAM FAST FOR ME. ANYBODY ENJOYED THEIR CHRISTMAS? I ENJOYED MINES. WHO'S READY FOR THE NEW YEAR? I AM. 2009 WAS LIKE A KRAZII YEAR FOR SOME PEOPLE. MAD PEOPLE DIED & STUFF LIKE THAT. JUST SAD. HOPE NEXT YEAR IS A GREAT YEAR!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Still Standing

Its been a good minute since I wrote a post. Well im doing pretty good & just basically living my life to the fullest. I attend PBC (Professional Business College). Yeah im doing the school thing =) . Everybody needs a education. I done gave up on alot but I always seem to get right back to on track no matter how long it takes me to. Imma do it!. Nothing can get in my way this time & when I say NOTHING I mean it. Im following my dreams!


What have yall been up to?

Wanna hear this lil rap I wrote or w/e you wanna call it? (NO I DONT WANNA BE A RAPPER) 

okay here it go.................



These streets of New York is so cold
I be dam if I let anyody fold 
I cant be told to do anything 
My mind is on point, I dont need no joint
I walk down the street, they say Toya do you think you sweet
I say naw but would you like a treat, you might get weak....................



Lol. Yea thats it. That came off the top of my head! I was just bored thats all.
but what do you HONESTLY think of it? 






"I can be anything I put my mind to"

Saturday, November 21, 2009

SEX JOKE

An escaped convict, imprisoned for 1st degree murder, had spent 25 years of his life sentence in prison. While on the run, he broke into a house and tied up a young couple who had been sleeping in the bedroom.
He tied the man to a chair on one side of the room and his wif...e on the bed. He got on the bed right over the woman, and it appeared he was kissing her neck. Suddenly he got up and left the room.
As soon as possible the husband made his way across the room to his bride, his chair in tow, and whispered, ‘Honey, this guy hasn't seen a woman in years. I saw him kissing on your neck and then he left in a hurry. Just cooperate and do anything he wants. If he wants to have sex with you, just go along with it and pretend you like it. Whatever you do don't fight him or make him mad. Our lives depend on it!. Be strong and I love you.’
After spitting out the gag in her mouth, the half naked wife says: ‘Dear, I'm so relieved you feel that way. You're right, he hasn't seen a woman in years, but he wasn't kissing my neck....He was whispering in my ear. He said he thinks you're really cute and asked if we kept the Vaseline in the bathroom. Be strong and I love you, too.’

 

 LMFAO NOW THATS FUNNI! 

Monday, November 16, 2009

21 AND LOVING IT


YES ON THRUSDAY(THE 12TH) I FINALLY TURNED 21. HOW DOES IT FEEL? GREAT! I HAD THE BEST TIME FROM WEDNESDAY TIL SUNDAY!(YES I BEEN CELBRATING SINCE WEDNESDAY) NOW THE CELEBRATION OVER LOL....


 

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

OLD

NEXT WEEK THRUSDAY (NOV 12TH) I WILL BE THE BIG 21. THATS KRAZII LOL. IM REALLY GETTING OLD. WOW I COULD OF SWORN YESTERDAY I WAS A TEEN. YES TIME SURE DOES FLY BY LIKE A SPEEDING BULLET. CANT BELIEVE IT. TIME WAITS FOR NOBODY. I DONT KNOW HOW IMMA FEEL WHEN I TURN 21 BUT I DO KNOW IMMA MAKE THAT THE BEST DAY. 

WELL I BEEN ON MY GROWN WOMAN ISH AND NOBODY CAN STOP ME FROM DOING WHAT I DO. FEEL ME? NOT LETTING NOBODY BRING ME DOWN!



ANYWAYS HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

DONT PLAY WITH LIFE

LIFE SHOULDNT BE PLAYED WITH AT ALL.


EARLY TODAY MY BABYFATHER GOT SHOT AND IM STILL IN SHOCK HAPPY HE'S STILL ALIVE THOUGH. AFTER EVERYTHING WE BEEN THROUGH I STILL GOT LOVE FOR HIM AND I WOULD  OF BEEN REALLY CRUSHED IF HE AINT MAKE IT THROUGH THOSE BULLETS NOT ONLY ME BUT QUAN WOULD OF ALSO BEEN CRUSHED. 


BUT WHEN I FOUND OUT HE GOT SHOT, I WAS IN SHOCK AND TEARS WAS FOLOWING. MY HEART WAS BEATING TRIPLE FAST. HONESTLY I WAS SCARED!  SHIT IM STILL IN SHOCK.



GOD IS GOOD AND IM THANKFUL HE'S STILL ALIVE!  

Saturday, October 24, 2009

LIVING LOVELY



WHEN THE LAST TIME YOU SAW A PICTURE OF ME UP HERE? LOL YESSSSIR THATS ME AND IM LIVING LOVELY EVEN THOUGH IM KINDA STRESSING BUT I KNOW WITH MY HEART EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT.  YEAH GOING THROUGH HARD TIME AND STRUGGLES . WELL YEAH THATS PART OF LIFE SO I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO SUCK IT UP, BECAUSE WHAT ELSE CAN I DO?. NOTHING AT ALL. EVERYTHING THATS GOING ON IN MY LIFE IS FOR A REASON. 

IM LOVING MY SON MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD AND IM BEING THE BEST MOTHER I CAN BE AND IM DOING A GREAT JOB AT IT. SO GREAT THAT MY SON CALLS ME MOMMY & DADDY!. YUP IM BOTH AND HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH IT. I BEEN HAVING  THIS DOWN PACK SINCE 3/24/07. HIS FATHER IS ONLY A FATHER WHEN HE WANNA BE , HE LETTING THE STREETS TAKE CONTROL OF HIM. BUT WE NOT GON GET INTO THAT.



ANYWAYS LIKE I SAID IM LIVING LOVELY  AND SO IS MY LIL MAN !

Monday, October 19, 2009

VERY AGGRAVATED

SO I GET ANNOYED AND AGGRAVATED WITH PEOPLE VERY FAST. AM IM THE ONLY ONE THATS LIKE THAT? IDK WHY I GET SO ANNOYED AND AGGRAVATED WITH PEOPLE SO FAST. MAYBE CAUSE THE SHIT THEY DO TO PISS ME THE FUCK OFF. SOME PEOPLE JUST REALLY GET UNDER MY SKIN. 

IM STARTING NOT TO BELIEVE IN MY SON'S GODPARENTS ANYMORE. THEY NOT FAITHFUL TO THAT WORD. SHIT I DONT  EVEN BELIEVE IN MY GODMOTHER. ITS JUST THE WAY PEOPLE CARRY THEYSELF FOR ME TO FEEL THIS WAY. 

EVERYBODY  AROUND CHANGING  UP ON ME. THATS NOTHING NEW THOUGH. LOL IM GETTING USE TO IT. I STARTED TO DELETE MY TWITTER, MYSPACE AND FACEBOOK TODAY, THATS HOW I ANNOYED I GOT BUT INSTEAD I DECIDE TO PUT MY THOUGHTS HERE AND I FEEL BETTER..


BUT WHY THE FUCK PEOPLE GOTTA BE SO ANNOYING AND DO STUPID SHIT TO PISS ME THE HELL OFF? DO THEY HAVE FUN DOING IT? I GUESS SO IDK!




IMMA END THIS HERE! 
 

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

THOUGHTS FOR THE NIGHT

I HAVE ALOT OF THOUGHTS RIGHT NOW BUT MY MAIN ONE IS. I WANNA WRITE A BOOK. NOT REALLY SURE OF THE TITLE, BUT I WANNA SPEAK ON RELATIONSHIPS AND TELL PEOPLE WHAT I EXPERIENCED IN THEM . YALL GET THE POINT RIGHT? OR MAYBE NOT? WELL LET ME MAKE IT CLEAR. I WANT TO WRITE A BOOK ABOUT DIFFERENT TYPES OF RELATIONSHIPS AND MAKE SURE PEOPLE LEARN ALOT FROM THEM. 


ANY IDEAS  OF WHAT THE TITLE SHOULD BE? CUZ I WAS THINKING "DIFFERENT TYPES OF RELATIONSHIPS" . HOW DOES THAT SOUND FOR A TITLE?

Monday, October 5, 2009

R.I.P AJ




R.I.P TO AJ (KANDI BURRUSS FIANCE) 


THIS IS A SAD WORLD. I DONT EVEN REALLY KNOW WHAT TO SAY. BUT MY HEART AND PRAYERS GOES OUT TO KANDI, HIS CHILDREN AND FAMILY. LIFE IS JUST SO SHORT. YOU NEVER GET A WARNING SIGN OR NOTHING ABOUT WHEN YOU LEAVING THIS EARTH. VIOLENCE----IT REALLY HAVE TO COME TO A STOP. SERIOUSLY. SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE DIED DUE TO FIGHTS/SHOOTING. ITS JUST FUCKED UP! WHY FIGHT? WHEN EVERYBODY CAN JUST COME TOGETHER AS ONE! I DONT UNDERSTAND. LIKE I FEEL SO SORRY FOR HIS KIDS, THEY DONT HAVE A FATHER ANYMORE AND I KNOW HOW THAT FEELS THAT SHIT HURTS LIKE HELL. I ALSO FEEL SORRY FOR KANDI. ITS TOO SAD! WHEN I READ HER BLOG SHE WROTE SPEAKIN ON HIS DEATH AND HER UNCLE'S DEATH REALLY BROUGHT TEARS TO MY EYES. ITS KRAZII CAUSE YOU CAN BE WITH A PERSON ONE MINUTE THAN THE NEXT MINUTE THEY CAN BE DEAD. THATS WHY I CANT STAY MAD AT A PERSON FOR SO LONG BECAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN THAT PERSON GON BE SWIPED OFF THIS OFF. A PERSON CAN BE GON AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT. SO MANY PEOPLE DIED THIS YEAR, ITS KRAZII AND SAD! LIKE WHATS GOING ON? IS THIS WORLD COMING TO A COMPLETE END? I NEED TO KNOW. I TRY TO DO EVERYTHING I CAN IN MY LIFE CAUSE TIME DONT WAIT FOR NOBODY AT ALL. TRUE? IM ALWAYS HEARING ABOUT PEOPLE DYING. MAN THIS IS SAD!.


Thursday, October 1, 2009

UPDATE

WELL AS YALL KNOW ITS OCT 1ST, DAM TIME IS TOO FAST FOR ME. DONT REALLY HAVE ANYTHING TO BLOG ABOUT. JUST HERE TO LET YALL KNOW IM STILL HERE (ME AND QUAN GOOD)...............LOL....OH AND MY 21ST BDAY NEXT MONTH!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

I CAN DO BAD ALL BY MYSELF(MADEA)

THAT MOVIE WAS THE BEST EVER. HAD ME KRYING AND SHIT. GOT IN SOME DEEP THOUGHTS AND ALL THAT. LMFAO MADEA WILD KRAZII THO AND SO IS JOE.


ALOT OF PEOPLE CAN LEARN FROM THAT MOVIE


IM SAYING IF A BITCH OR NIGGAH BRINGING YOU DOWN AND YOU KNOW BEING IN THAT RELATIONSHIP JUST AINT RIGHT BUT YOU JUST WANNA BE STUPID. JUST KEEP IN MIND "YOU CAN DO BAD BY YOURSLEF".


SOME FEMALES THINK HAVING A RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEBODY ELSE'S HUSBAND IS KOOL, WELL ITS NOT BECAUSE HE'S NOT ONLY FUCKING HIS WIFE , HE FUCKING YOU TOO. SO WHAT IF HE PAYING YOUR BILLS. THAT DONT MEAN HE GETS TO HAVE HIS FUCKING CAKE AND EAT IT TOO. IT JUST AINT RIGHT.



& SOME MALES OUT HERE THINK HAVING A RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEBODY ELSE'S WIFE IS KOOL ALSO. WELL ITS NOT BECAUSE (LIKE I SAID ABOUT FEMALES) . NOT ONLY IS SHE FUCKING YOU BUT SHE FUCKING HER HUSBAND ALSO. SHE CANT HAVE HER CAKE AND EAT IT TOO.


ALL THE DISEASES GOING AROUND I DONT KNOW WHY SOME PEOPLE FUCK OTHER PEOPLE WIVIES/HUSBANDS. SHIT NOT KUTE AT ALL!

Monday, September 14, 2009

VMA

OKAY REALLY DONT KNOW WHERE TO START ABOUT WHAT I SAW ON TV LAST NIGHT.


FIRST OFF...........KANYE OH LAWD!
PEOPLE THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNI THAT HE SNATCHED THE MIC OUT OF TAYLOR SWIFT HAND AND SAY WHAT HE HAD TO SAY. HE HAD TO BE DRUNK OR SOMETHING. IT WAS KINDA FUNNI THAN I THOUGHT ABOUT IT. IT WAS DISRESPECTFUL . REALLY IT WAS. HE DIDNT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THOUGHT. YEA HE REAL BOLD!


LADY GAGA-----SERIOUSLY SHE'S REALLY DIFFERENT AND KINDA SCARY AND WEIRD TO ME.



PINK-----WHY DID SHE HAVE A HEART ON HER NIPPLE? AND SHE WAS HANG FROM WHAT? SMH LOOK LIKE THAT SHIT YOU SEE IN THE CIRCUS.


BEYONCE----HER PERFORMANCE WAS NICE AND IT WAS SWEET OF HER TO LET TAYLOR TO FINISH HER SPEECH.


TAYLOR SWIFT-------A PERFORMANCE IN A TRAIN STATION WHY? LOL AND THAT WAS THE FIRST TIME ME HEARING THAT SONG AND I LIKE THE BEAT. WHAT WAS THE NAME OF THE SONG SHE SANG? I FORGOT


BRITNEY SPEARS------HONESTLY I DIDNT KNOW SHE STILL SING. LOL AND WHAT KIND OF DANCE WAS SHE DOING? PLZ TELL ME!


KID CUDI-----4 WORDS "HE CAN GET IT". HE IS HELLA SEXY!


P.DIDDY------HMMMMMM NO WORDS REALLY


MJ TRIBUTE-----MADE ME TEARY EYE


MUSE-------SERIOUSLY WHO ARE THEY? NEVER HEARD!



JAY-Z AND ALICA KEYS------JAY WALKS WITH MAD SWAGG AND I LIKE IT. LOVED THE PERFORMANCE EVEN THOUGH JAY WAS LATE, I LIKE THAT SONG. ALICA WAS WORKING THEM SHOES TOO (PRETTY WERENT THEY?). BUT WAT A MINUTE WHERE THE HELL DID LIL MAMA COME FROM????? SHE WAS DEAD ASS WITH NO MIC, SO WHY SHE EVEN GO ON THE STAGE? SHE LOOKED LIKE A FUCKING ASSHEAD 4REAL. LOL SHE PROBABLY WAS SIPPING ON WHATEVER KANYE WAS SIPPING ON.





WELL THATS ALL I GOTTA SAY!

Sunday, September 13, 2009

DEEP

NO MATTER HOW HAPPY I AM, I CAN NEVER BE HAPPY FOR TOO LONG. ITS JUST MY LIFE. I WOULDNT WANT ANYBODY TO FEEL HOW I FEEL SOMEDAYS. ITS TIME WHERE I DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO. SO I START SAYING KRAZII SHIT LIKE IMMA JUMP IN FRONT OF A CAR (BUT DEEP DOWN INSIDE I WOULDNT DO NOTHING LIKE THAT). THATS JUST THE WAY I BE FEELING. THE SHIT I GO THROUGH IS HARD TO EXPLAIN. IT DONT MAKE ANY SENSE. ME AND MY MOM ARGUE EVERYDAY AND SHE ALWAYS STARTS THE ARGUMENTS. GUESS WE NEVER GON GET ALONG AND WHEN I MOVE I DONT THINK I WANNA COME BACK TO VISIT HER. SEE IM NOT A MOMMY'S GIRL IN MY EYES, I WAS ALWAYS A DADDY'S GIRL AND WHEN MY DADDY DIED IN 2004 THAT WAS THE END OF THAT. IM AT THIS POINT IN MY LIFE WHERE I JUST WANNA BE STRESS FREE FOREVER. ITS LIKE ONE DAY IM STRESSED AND THE NEXT IM NOT. WHY IS THAT? I SAY MEAN SHIT TO MY MOM CAUSE SHE PISSES ME OFF. LIKE SHE DONT UNDERSTAND SHIT. I DONT THINK ANY PARENTS UNDERSTAND THEIR CHILD.


IN A COUPLE OF MONTHS IMMA BE 21 AND I THINK IMMA STILL BE GOING THRU THE SAMETHING. SOMETIMES I THINK MY CAUSE OF DEATH IS GONNA BE STRESS CAUSE IT BE THAT BAD. IM SITTING HERE KRYING AS I TYPE THIS, UGH MY CHEST IS HURTING AND SHIT. IF I GO INTO MORE DETAILS ON HOW I FEEL. YALL PROBABLY STILL WOULDNT UNDERSTAND. NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME. YOU GOTTA WALK IN MY SHOES AND FEEL HOW I FEEL THAN YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND ME. MY LIFE AINT PERFECT AND I DONT WANT NOBODY TO THINK IT IS. JUST CAUSE I GET THIS AND THAT OR WHATEVER DOESNT MEAN IM PERFECT. I CRY MOSTLY ALL THE TIME. JUST CAUSE I BE HAPPY DOESNT MEAN I CANT BE SAD ON THE INSIDE. SOMETIMES I WONDER WAS I REALLY MEANT TO BE BORN?, WAS I JUST A MISTAKE? I KNOW I SHOULDNT FEEL LIKE THAT BUT I CANT CONTROL HOW I FEEL.


IMMA END THIS POST HERE CAUSE TEARS COMING HEAVY!

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

FRANKIE & NEFFE

I KNEW SOME DAY THEY WOULD GET THEY OWN SHOW. EVERYBODY SEEMS TO HAVE THEIR OWN VIEWS ABOUT THE SHOW. SOME NEGATIVE AND SOME POSTIVE.

NOBODY SEEMS TO WANNA RESPECT FRANKIE BECAUSE SHE WAS A KRACK HEAD. BUT THATS NOT RIGHT. YOU CANT KEEP HOLDING THE PAST AGANIST A PERSON. LIFE TOO SHORT FOR THAT. I


THIS A ALRIGHT SHOW(KINDA EMOTIONAL BUT I LIKE IT). I FEEL THAT THEY ARE NOT THE ONLY ONES THAT GO THRU WAT THEY GO THRU AND THATS PROBABLY WHY THEY MADE IT A REALITY TV SHOW. BELIEVE IT OR NOT ALOT OF PEOPLE CAN LEARN ALOT FROM THIS SHOW.

BEING THAT NEFFE IS FRANKIE'S FIRST BORN, THEY ARE NOT GONNA AGREE ON EVERYTHING. YOU CAN SEE THAT THEY LOVE EACH ALOT THO. AS MUCH AS NEFFE BE YELLING AT HER MOM (FRANKIE) DEEP DOWN INSIDE SHE DOESNT MEAN IT. SHE JUST WANTS FRANKIE TO FULLY UNDERSTAND HOW SHE FEEL. SHE ONLY WANTS THE BEST FOR FRANKIE AND WILL PROTECT HER IN EVERYWAY SHE CAN.

PEOPLE SAY FRANKIE THIS AND SHE THAT BECAUSE SHE WAS A KRACK HEAD. BUT DO THEY REALLY KNOW WHAT TURNED FRANKIE TO DRUGS? PROBABLY NOT. PEOPLE GO THRU SHIT IN LIFE AND SOMETIMES THEY MIND BE ALL FUCKED UP AND THEY JUST SAY FUCK IT, THEY DONT CARE.

FRANKIE IS STILL STRUGGLING AND ITS GONNA TAKE A WHILE FOR HER TO FULLY FORGIVE HERSELF. I BET IF SHE CAN DO HER LIFE ALL OVER AGAIN THAT SHE WOULD MAKE IT RIGHT.


PEOPLE SAY B.E.T HAS FAILED BECAUSE OF THIS SHOW, BUT IT HASNT. I JUST THINK ITS CHANGING UP THE STYLE. I MEAN LIKE IF YOU DONT LIKE THE SHOW WHY EVEN WATCH IT AND TALK ABOUT IT?. YOU MUST LIKE IT IF YOU TALK ABOUT IT.




"ALWAYS REMEMBER NOBODY'S PERFECT"

Monday, August 24, 2009

PEOM FROM THE HEART

THIS POEM IS TITLED-NOT A WORLD AND YES ITS WRITTEN BY ME. I ONLY WRITE POEMS WHEN IM IN THE MOOD TOO AND WHEN MY MIND ISNT BLANK. KNO WAT I MEAN?



TREES NOT BREATHING
PLANTS NOT GROWING
WIND NOT BLOWING
THERE IS NO WATER
TRAINS NOT MOVING
PEOPLE NOT MOVING
KIDS NOT RUNNING AROUND
BUSES NOT MOVING
LIGHTS NOT ON
NO FOOD
A WORLD FULL OF NOTHING




SO0O WAT YALL THOUGHT OF THAT POEM?

Saturday, August 22, 2009

JUST WHY

ITS A REASON TO EVERYTHING RIGHT? SO WHY NOT ASK WHY? UNDERSTAND ME.


SO0O0O0O


WHY MUST PEOPLE GET ON OTHER PEOPLE NEVERS?
WHY DO PEOPLE ACT BRAND NEW WHEN THEY GET A BF/GF?
WHY DO PEOPLE LIE OVER AND OVER AGAIN WHEN THEY KNOW THAT YOU KNOW THEY ARE LYING?
WHY DO PEOPLE DO STUPID SHIT?
WHY IS EVERYBODY GETTING BLACKBERRYS?
WHY TWITTER ONLY LET YOU TYPE 140 CHARACTERS?
WHY WHEN PEOPLE GET FAMOUS THEY ACT LIKE THEY WERE NEVER UNFAMOUS?
WHY DID CASSIE AND SOLANGE KUT THEY DAM HAIR LIKE THAT?
WHY THERE DONT BE NOTHING REALLY GOOD ON TV TO WATCH ON SATURDAYS?
WHY IS MYSPACE SO WHACK NOW WHEN IT USE TO BE POPPING?
WHY YOU CANT TRUST PEOPLE NOW A DAYS?
WHY WHEN YOU GO FOR A JOB INTERVIEW THEY ALWAYS SAY "I WILL CALL YOU" BUT NEVER CALL?
WHY SO MANY PEOPLE LEAVING THIS EARTH?
WHY MUSIC AINT LIKE IT USE TO BE ?
WHY ARE SOME INNOCENT PEOPLE IN PRISON?
WHY COPS ALWAYS ROLLING UP ON SOMEBODY WHEN THE PERSON NOT EVEN DOING NOTHING?
WHY ARE SOME PEOPLE HOMELESS?
WHY THIS WORLD SO DAM COLD?
WHY LIL WAYNE GOT ALL THESE BABYMOTHERS FOR?
WHY THEY DIDNT MAKE A PART TWO TO THE MOVIES ATL AND UNINVITED GUEST?
WHY DOES TINY FACE LOOK THE WAY IT DOES?
WHY T-MOBILE SERVICE ALWAYS ACTING UP?



JUST WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


WELL ITS MORE "WHY'S" BUT THATS ALL FOR NOW. AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT WONDER "WHY"?? LOL PROBABLY. GUESS IM A LIL WEIRD OR MAYBE NOT.


Thursday, August 13, 2009

DONT KNOW

SO MUCH GOING ON IN MY LIFE AT THIS TIME BUT I WILL ALWAYS STAND STRONG.
I KNOW I SAID I WILL POST MORE. BUT HONESTLY I JUST CANT DO IT. (LOL) MY MIND JUST BE GOING KRAZII. I CAN SAY ALOT OF SHIT IN THIS POST YALL PROBABLY BE LIKE "WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW"..BUT I WONT DO THAT. ITS JUST TOO MUCH. I DONT EVEN KNOW IF YALL STILL READ MY POST..

ITS LIKE ONE MINUTE IM HAPPY AND THAN THE NEXT IM FUCKING MAD AS HELL. SHIT I BE HAVING EMOTIONAL BRAKE DOWNS AND SHIT. ITS JUST UGHHHHHHH! BUT DONT WORRY IM KOOL. OH & STILL HOLDING MY MAN DOWN(THEY NEED TO FREE HIM 4REAL)


IN A COUPLE OF MONTHS(NOVEMBER 12TH) I WILL BE THE BIG 21. I CANT BELIEVE IT. AM I GETTING OLD? YEA I CAN FEEL IT. LOL



I DONT EVEN BE READING PEOPLE BLOGS OR MAYBE SOMETIMES I DO.
WELL YALL CAN JUST HIT ME UP ON TWITTER, AIM ETC.


Wednesday, July 15, 2009

CONTROLLING ASS MEN

I CANT STAND CONTROLLING ASS MEN. NOPE NOPE NOPE!!!
SO LAST NIGHT I WATCHED TINY AND TOYA SHOW. I LOVE THE SHOW ALREADY. ANYTEEWAYS THEY MADE IT SEEM LIKE T.I IS CONTROLLING AS HELL. LIKE REALLY IS HE THAT CONTROLLING??? EWWW DONT NOBODY WANT TINY. 4REAL. IF YOU WATCHED LAST NIGHT SHOW THAN YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT. SHE DEAD ASS DIDNT GO TO THE CLUB WITH TOYA AND THE REST OF THE GIRLS CAUSE OF T.I. OH PLZ HE AINT HER DADDY. WHAT SHE NOT SUPPOSE TO HAVE A LIFE OR SOME SHIT?????. WELLI I HOPE SHE AINT SITTING IN THE HOUSE DOING NOTHING WHILE HE BEHIND BARS CAUSE THAT SHIT AINT KOOL.


SHIT THAT COULDNT BE ME. A NIGGAH WOULD JUST BE MAD AT ME AND HAVE TO GET OVER IT CAUSE AINT NO NIGGA GON TELL ME WHERE I CANT GO OR WHAT I CANT DO. I DONT CARE IF WE ENGAGED OR MARRIED. IMMA DO WHAT I WANT. MEANING IF I WANNA HAVE FUCKING FUN AND A NIGGAH DONT WANT ME TO THAN HE CAN KISS MY ASS CAUSE IMMA HAVE MY FUN. FEEL ME?

NOW IF I WANNA GO OUTSIDE NAKED THAN THATS WHEN A NIGGAH SHOULD SAY "BABY NO DONT DO THAT". LOL

GET WHAT IM SAYIN RIGHT?

SOME FEMALES IN THIS WORLD LET NIGGAHS WALK ALL OVER THEM AND LET THEM BOSS THEM AROUND. UGHH IT KILLS ME. LIKE IF A NGGAH DONT WANT YOU GOING NOWHERE OR DOING POSTIVE STUFF AND SHIT. THAN HE MUST DONT TRUST YOUR ASS AND THATS WHEN FEMALES SHOULD STAND UP FOR THEY SELF AND LET IT BE KNOWN WHAT IT IS .


YALL UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SAYING?


DONT GIVE A NIGGAH ALL YOUR POWER CAUSE IF YOU DO THAT THAN THEY KNOW THEY GOT YOU EXACTLY WHERE THEY WANT YOU TO BE "ON LOCKDOWN".


YEAH AS YOU CAN SEE I REALLY DONT LIKE CONTROLLING ASS MEN!!!!



PS.
YALL THAT READ MY BLOG PROBABLY WONDERING WHATS UP WITH MY BOYFRIEND CHRIS RIGHT? WELL HE'S STILL IN THAT PIECE OF SHIT THEY LIKE TO CALL "PRISON" AND SHOULD BE HOME IN TWO YEARS. YEA SAD RIGHT? . WELL MAYBE I WILL TALK ABT HIM IN A ANOTHER POST. THIS IT FOR THIS POST!!!

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

WINGATE

WORDS CANT EXPLAIN HOW BAD I REALLY WANTED TO SEE KEYSHIA COLE YESTERDAY AT WINGATE BUT OH WELL I'LL JUST HAVE TO SEE HER ANOTHER TIME. PEOPLE DONT KNOW HOW TO ACT WHEN A FAMOUS PERSON COMES TO BROOKLYN. YES I WENT TO WINGATE YESTERDAY BUT SOON AS PEOPLE STARTED ACTING UP THEY STOP LET PEOPLE . ALEAST I SAW HER WHEN SHE WAS IN THE VAN LOL.

FIGHTS ON THE LINE AND SHIT. PEOPLE RUNNING FROM THE COPS ON HORSES.. UGHHHHH JUST KRAZII AND SOMEBODY GOT HURT. OMG I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE CANT ACT LIKE THEY HAVE SOME TYPE OF SENSE. I KNOW THEY PARENTS PROBABLY TAUGHT THEM SOMETHING OR MAYBE NOT IDK. BUT TO ACT LIKE A ASSHEADS IN PUBLIC PLACES IS NOT CALLED FOR.

POOR KEYSHIA COLE WHO HAD TO SEE PEOPLE ACT LIKE FUCKING ANIMALS OVER HER. WOW IS ALL I CAN SAY!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Drake



Omg this video really sucked to me like on some real shit!
The Video really doesnt match the song. Im not really a fan of drake fan either.
I just like the song and I think it should of had a better video to it. SERIOUSLY cause this shit here I dont even know and dam sure dont understand what does it have to do with the song.


what do yall think of the video?



Wednesday, July 1, 2009

R.I.P MJ

I know its so0o hard to believe that he's really gone. Dam its krazii how everbody just dying. Its so0o0 sad. He was the best. Dont wanna say much than I start krying. I remember when I use to always listen to "U rock my world" when I was younger thats my jam right there.

I wanna send my Condolenses to the family and friends of Micheal Jackson. I know its hurts cause it hurts me.


We as the fans, friends, family have to stay strong and know he's in god hands so0 he's okay.



R.I.P MJ (You are truly missed and loved)

Sunday, June 21, 2009

DADDY DAY

HAPPY FATHERS DAY TO ALL THE FATHERS AND ALSO HAPPY FATHERS DAY TO ALL THE SINGLE MOTHERS WHO'S BEING A MOMMY AND DADDY TO THEIR CHILD.



MOST OF ALL HAPPY FATHERS DAY TO MY DADDY (R.I.P)

WISH HE CAN STILL BE HERE WITH ME..OMG!
I LOVE AND MISS HIM LIKE KRAZIII!!!



ITS REALLY HARD BEING A DADDY'S GIRL WHEN YOUR DADDY'S GONE




Tuesday, June 16, 2009

WISH HIM A HAPPY B-DAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TUPAC AMARU SHAKUR "2PAC" (R.I.P)


I STILL DONT BELIEVE HE'S DEAD!!!!

Monday, June 15, 2009

Never Left

YES I KNOW MY LIL MAN GETTING BIG....UGHH I MISS WHEN HE WAS A NEW BORN

BUT THEY CANT STAY BABIES FOREVER FEEL ME....



YEA THATS ME. STILL THE SAME!! NEVER LEFT YALL. SORRY I HAVENT BEEN BLOGGING IN A WHILE JUST DONT HAVE NOTHING TO BLOG ABOUT AND MY EVERYDAY LIFE KINDA BORING. BUT I WILL TRY TO BLOG EVERYDAY...I SAID try LOL...

ANYWAYS I BEEN READING SOME OF YALL BLOGS. VERY INTERESTING! MAY HAVE COMMENTED SOME AND MAY HAVE NOT. ((SORRRRRY)).


WELL IF YOU WANNA TALK IM ALWAYS ON AIM JUST ASK FOR MY S/N..OR JUST FOLLOW ME ON TWITTER


IN THE MEAN TIME.

QUESTION OF 2DAY IS: DOES MARRIAGE ACTUALLY MEAN LOCK DOWN?

DROP YOUR ANSWERS IN A COMMENT THANKX...

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

LiL MaN


YES MY LIL MAN GOT A HAIR KUT(MAY 25,2009)!!!!...AND HE LOVES IT AND SO DO I!!
WHY DID I GET IT KUT??? I KNOW THATS YOUR QUESTION.....
WELL HE NEVER LIKED ME COMBIN, BRUSHING, WASHING OR BRAIDING HIS HAIR (HE USE TO KRY AND PUSH ME AWAY HE LIKED HIS HAIR BEING NAPPY ALL THE TIME) LOL HE JUST DIDNT WANT ME TOUCHING HIS HAIR PERIOD.

SO0O I FELT IT WAS TIME TO GET IT KUT AND I WAS READY FOR IT TO BE KUT
SO MY BIG CUZZIN TOOK HIM TO THE BARBER . DID I GO WITH THEM ??? HELL NO I WOULD OF KRIED MY ASS OFF. SERIOUSLY!!!

EVERYBODY SAY HE LOOK GROWN IN THE PIC ABOVE SHIT HE ALREADY THINK HE GROWN PEOPLE BE ASKING HIM HOW OLD HE IS AND HE SAY "4" . HE JUST PLAY TOO MUCH. HE KNOW HE AINT NO DAM "4". LOL

I LOVE THAT LIL BOY THO...

Thursday, May 21, 2009

ITS HIS BIRTHDAY


HAPPY 37TH BIRTHDAY TO THE NOTORIOUS B.I.G
(REST IN PEACE)

HE IS LOVED AND MISSED LIKE KRAZY!!!!

WOW HE BEEN GON FOR 12 YEARS!!

SO0O SAD!!!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

i got it

YESSSSSIR I FINALLY RECIEVED THE NEW SIDEKICK LX 2009 YESTERDAY (5-12-09). AND ITS GREAT. I LOVE IT!!!!!

BUT.....SMHx1000000000000000000000000000000000000

T-MOBILE SERVICES SUCKS. IT ALWAYS SOME TYPE OF OUTAGE SOMEWHERE....

WELL THATS ALL IMMA SAY !!!

Friday, May 8, 2009

SMHx100

WOW HERE IT IS 2:23AM AND IM FIGHTING WITH MY FUCKING PHONE CHARGER. SMH IS T-MOBILE WOULD JUST SEND MY NEW PHONE I WOULDNT BE HAVING THIS DAM PROBLEM. OMG THEY SUCK...


ANTEEWAYS IM BORED SO0O WHY NOT BLOG RIGHT???.

WHOOP WHOOP MOTHERS DAY IS SUNDAY. THE MAIN THING I WANT IS A IPOD TOUCH. UGHHH I WANT ONE OF THOSE SO BAD BUT I KNOW I WONT GET ONE ON MOTHERS DAY SO0O0O OH WELL.

WAIT U HEAR THAT?? LOL OF COURSE NOT..BUT MY SON SNORING LIKE A GROWN ASS MAN..YUCK!! LOL


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I HAVENT BLOG SINCE LAST MONTH THE 28TH. I GUESS CAUSE I DONT BE HAVING SHIT TO SAY. HALF THE DAM TIME MY MIND BE SO0O BLANK.. LIKE SERIOUSLY.....

SEE MY MIND BLINK NOW.I HAVE NOTHIN ELSE TO SAY SO0O0 IM OUT...

PS. WTF IS UP WIT CASSIE ??? OMG SHE REALLY IS CHANGING. WELL MORE POWER TO HER I GUESS. LOL I AINT HATING BUT I WILL NEVER PIERCE MY NIPPLES..YUCK!!



Tuesday, April 28, 2009

SAW

OKAY SATURDAY THAT PASSED I WENT AND SEEN MY MAN CHRIS. IM LOVING HIM AND ITS SOMETHING REAL SERIOUS. THIS "HOLDING HIM DOWN" SHIT IS HARD. NOBODY EVER SAID IT WOULD BE EASY BUT DAM SOMETIMES I JUST BE IN THE ZONE AND I JUST START KRYIN BECAUSE I CANT BE NEXT TO HIM WHEN I WANNA BE OR HE CANT BE NEXT TO ME WHEN HE WANNA BE. I JUST WISH HE CAN BE A FREE MAN THATS ALL AND IM STILL PRAYING FOR THAT DAY TO COME. I KNOW I HAVE TO BE PATIENT AND THATS WHAT IM DOING.

"GOOD THINGS COME TO THOSE WHO WAIT" (I BELIEVE THAT)

ANYWAYS AS I TYPE THIS MY SON IS SNORING. LOL YEAH LIL MAN HAD A LONG DAY. OMG HE IS GROWING UP SO FAST DAY BY DAY. UGHHH I DONT WANNA GET OLD JUST YET. LOL HMMM I SEE MOTHERS DAY IS COMING UP AND I HAVENT EVEN MADE ANY PLANS YET. BUT HOPEFULLY I ENJOY THAT DAY WITH SOME FUN AND SHIT LIKE ALWAYS.

.....

OMG IM FEEN'N FOR MY NEW SIDEKICK TO GET HERE. UGHHH I NEED IT BAD CUZ THIS DAM KICK KEEP FUCKING UP.

DID YALL SEE OBSESSED???? WELL I DID THAT MOVIE IS THE 3RD BEST MOVIE I SAW THIS YEAR. YO BEYONCE AINT NO JOKE . I LOVED THE CHARACTER SHE PLAYED IN THE MOVIE. SHE A VERY GOOD ACTOR.. THAT OTHER KRAZII CHICK "ALI LARTER" WAS NUTS IN THAT MOVIE FOR REAL. I WANTED TO SMACK HER. DEAD ASS. LIKE HOW THE FUCK...NEVER MIND DONT WANNA SAY ANYTHING THAN THAT WOULD BE KINDA TELLING THE MOVIE AND SOME OF YALL PROBABLY AINT SEE IT YET. SO IMMA HUSH FOR NOW. LOL

WELL IM DONE WITH THIS POST

Sunday, April 19, 2009

JUST HAD TOO

YES I JUST HAD TO PRE-ORDER ME THE NEW SIDEKICK LX. YES I KNOW IM FEEN'N BUT I DONT EVEN CARE. CAUSE I NEED A NEW PHONE. MUST ADMIT IM ADDICTED TO SIDEKICKS.

THAN I WAS ON WWW.HIPTOP3.COM READING ABOUT IT AND I JUST FELL MORE IN LOVE WITH THE PHONE. LOL.

LOOK NOW YOU CANT SAY YOU AINT GETTING THIS PHONE AFTER YOU READ THIS BELOW....GO HEAD READ IT.....

Thanks to the folks at the official Danger Device Forums, there are a lot more specifics on features thanks to the moderators who actually have been test-driving the devices for several weeks. Here is the rundown so far (with some more pics!):

  • No Shells like the 2008
  • 3 mood lights – new locations: 1 on top and bottom of the keyboard

http://www.poweredbydanger.com/forums/attachment.php?attachmentid=1332&d=1240058761

and 1 long one on the top edge of the screen when opened (bottom of screen when closed)

http://www.poweredbydanger.com/forums/attachment.php?attachmentid=1333&d=1240058814

  • Actual Screen Shot (click for full size)

Sidekick LX 2009 Screenshot

  • no animated gifs
  • SDHC Memory – no limit – just what is available on the market (16gb – OK!!)
  • Speaker is louder than before
  • Video Mode - Low Res is a 176×144 resolution meant for sending via email/mms. This resolution is limited to something like 4 minutes.
  • Video taken from an SK09 (Hi-Res Mode – no recording limit!!):

http://s581.photobucket.com/albums/ss259/appletech_pbd/?action=view&current=VID00002.flv

  • Photo App Max size: 2,048 x 1,536

http://img14.imageshack.us/img14/8283/img00061h.jpg
http://img12.imageshack.us/img12/2281/img00062l.jpg
http://img14.imageshack.us/img14/7992/img00064l.jpg

  • You can Geotag photos with your GPS location.
  • It’s a 3.2MP camera with Auto Focus and flash (no zooming).
  • There’s an auto focus mode with options distant and macro mode. There’s white balance controls, and B&W, Sepia, Negative effect options.
  • Available resolution options are:
    • 2048 x 1536
    • 1600 x 1200
    • 1280 x 960
    • 800 x 600
    • 640 x 480
  • YouTube videos work.
  • m.break.com videos work (but not smooth)
  • Seesmic does not work
  • Facebook app seems to be a souped-up mobile version. No videos, apps, etc.
  • Internet Radio Works!! (Ex: ShoutCast):
    http://poweredbydanger.com/forums/attachment.php?attachmentid=1342&d=1240089939
  • Yahoo Messenger supports animated buddy icons.
  • AIM and Yahoo Messenger now support photo sharing
  • You can also upload videos to youtube (or photobucket or myspace) directly
  • Web Browser still does not support Flash
  • You cannot roam on AT&Ts 3G Network due to the ranges being different:
    The LX09 supports UMTS Bands 2100, 1700, 850.
    T-Mobile uses 1700 and 2100 for 3G, while AT&T uses 1900. So you won’t be able to roam on AT&T 3G.
    As for “Other networks”, it depends on what 3G band they are using.
  • Still has chrome around the USB/Charger, but appears to be more sratch-resistant:
    http://poweredbydanger.com/forums/attachment.php?attachmentid=1338&d=1240087896
  • Data plans are grandfathered. T-Mobile will not raise your rates
  • When GPS is on, the battery drains faster. (there is an option to turn it on/off)
  • Browser is overall the same as the last OTA on the LX. But you have a LOT more room:
    http://poweredbydanger.com/forums/attachment.php?attachmentid=1319&d=1239974010
  • Still 6MB limit on email/ 100+30 limit on SMS (both same as before)
  • No confirmation as to “Free Ringtone downloads” still basing it on info already published.
  • Themes can still be user-generated like before
  • Social apps (Twitter, Myspace, Photobucket, and Facebook) are all FREE – no monthly charges!!!!

Saturday, April 18, 2009

NEW SIDEKICK LX


YES THATS THE NEW SIDEKICK LX COMING OUT MAY 13TH. I WANT IT SO BAD IM THINKING ABOUT PRE-ORDERING IT BUT IM NOT SURE YET. BUT I KNOW I WANT THE DAM PHONE FORSHO. AND I BELIEVE I JUST MIGHT GET IT. SHIT I NEEDA NEW PHONE. IM TIRED OF THE KICK I GOT THE SCREEN ALWAYS GOING BLANK IM NOT SURPRISED EITHER CAUSE IT DID FALL IN THE TOILET...BUT ANYWAYS AGAIN I WANT THIS NEW KICK....LOL AINT IT SEXY? WELL I THINK IT IS. WHO ELSE WANT IT OR GETTING IT???

I KNOW I CANT BE THE ONLY ONE WHO WANTS THIS NEW KICK.

Monday, April 6, 2009

IN CASE

YEAH IN CASE YALL WAS WONDERING WHY I AINT BEEN POSTING OR COMMENTING YALL POSTS. DONT WORRY. IM ALL GOOD. JUST LIVING AND LOVING MY LIFE AND ALL THAT GOOD SHIT. FEEL ME? CAUSE TIME JUST FLYING BY AND I HAVE NONE TO WASTE. CAN YOU BELIEVE ITS APRIL ALREADY?. DAM CAUSE I CANT BELIEVE THE SHIT. BEFORE I KNOW ITS GON BE SUMMER. WHICH IS KOOL. BUT DAM CAN TIME SLOW THE HELL DOWN. LOL I DONT WANNA GET TOO OLD. WELL I AM READY TO HIT THE BIG 21 SO I CAN BUY MY OWN FUCKING DRINK. LOL YEAH BUT I AINT RUSHING MY AGE. FEEL ME?

SO LIKE WHATS UP WIT YALL????. BY THE WAY MY LOVE LIFE WITH MY MAN CHRIS IS GOING GOOD AND I CAN SEE HIM COMING HOME SOON BUT JUST GOTTA BE REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL PATIENT. YEAH IM STILL HOLDING HIM DOWN.

DAM I STILL DONT GOTTA JOB YET AND I REFUSE
TO GIVE UP. AND I NEED TO GET BACK IN SCHOOL SO IM REALLY WORKING ON THAT.

WHO GOT FOOLED ON APRIL FOOLS DAY??? I ALMOST DID AND IM GLAD I DIDNT. LOL CAUSE I DONT LIKE BEING FOOLED.


WELL IMMA END THIS POST HERE WITH A PI
CTURE OF ME AND MY LIL MAN

Sunday, March 29, 2009

My Hair & I love it




Yes its my REAL hair and I love it. Its not that long but its long enough. I gotta Lil color in it in the front as you can see in the first picture. Not much color its kool though. I like it Its kute. You like? *My sister did it*.

Its such a whack ass sunday aint nothing to do!

Well here are some more pictures since im bored lol
I love taking pictures especially with my LiL MaN!!!

Saturday, March 28, 2009

T-MOBILE

T-MOBILE REALLY FUCKING GETTING ON MY LAST FUCKING NERVES. IM SO FRUSTRATED WITH THEY DAM SERVICE. FOR REAL I AM. WHY IS IT THAT IM ALWAYS LOSING SERVICE? SOMETIMES I CAN BE FUCKING OUTSIDE AND I LOST SERVICE. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THAT. SHIT YO. IT REALLY PISSES ME OFF. OMG THAN I BE ON AIM IN THE MIDDLE OF IMPORTANT CONVERSTATIONS AND MY DAM SIDEKICK JUST LOSE FUCKING SERVICE. HMMMM T-MOBILE REALLY NEED TO GET IT THE FUCK TOGETHER BECAUSE IM HIGHLY UPSET WITH THEY DAM SERVICE. THAN I HEAR THEY SUPPOSE TO HAVE A NEW SIDEKICK COMING OUT. I HOPE THEY GON FIX THEY FUCKING SERVICE BEFORE THEY DECIDE TO RELEASE THAT FUCKING PHONE. CAUSE I WANT THAT DAM PHONE LOL. BUT YEAH AS YOU CAN SEE IM PISSED THE FUCK OFF WITH THEM. I DONT WANNA GO TO NO OTHER PHONE COMPANY CAUSE I LOVE MY SIDEKICK RIGHT NOW BUT SOONER OR LATER I KNOW I WILL PROBALLII GO TO ANOTHER PHONE COMPANY OR MAYBE I WONT. I REALLY DONT KNOW.UGHHHHHH I JUST WANT THEM TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THEY FUCKING SERVICE. YA DIG ME?

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

THEY GONE

Yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssir I finally took the box braids out. My hair feels so great even though its thick as I dont know what. But I love my real hair but love box braids more LoL. Not sure when Imma put the box braids back in but imma let this style rock for a while I guess. My hair needs air from the weave. I might even let my sister color it for me. (Not my whole head though), not sure of what color though so thats why I say "MIGHT".

I know my post have been short here lately and kinda not really interesting , but dont worry they will soon be longer and more interesting!! lol be patient!!! hahahahahahaha

Well this it for this post wait on more thing........... "I miss my man"

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

My babii is 2 now

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SON DAQUAN....

So yesssssssssssssss today is my son Daquan birthday
. He turned the big 2 years old. Awww he growing up so fast...I cant believe it. I gave him a party on saturday. He had a blast and so did I. I love this lil boy to death.
*Those are pictures from the party on saturday (eww i look a mess but ok). If you wanna see more pictures of the party just check my myspace page cause im not gonna post all those pics here LoL*

Smooches!!

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

61st Post & Im Angry



Yes thats how I look when Im angry. Not a kute site to me cause so many evil things go playing in my brain. Well im angry cause my mother put my weave in the bottom of the cloest. So I pulled mad shit out and had to put it back. SMFH!...Im just so tired of her touching my shit. And she knows how I get when it comes to my dam hair.I pay too much money for it for it go missing and shit. Dig what Im saying? Oh just in case you wondering thats not a glue or sew'n weave in the picture above. ITS BOX BRAIDS!!!..But anyways she need to stop moving my shit. If I touch her stuff I get yelled at WTF. Well I was so angry when I was looking for my weave. LOL I start screaming "OMG ma where is it?? stop touching my stuff". Yeah im angry. She want me to turn my music down now. NOPE aint gonna turn shit down . Cause its calming me down alot. She so dam annoying. Cant she see when im angry????...Ughhhhhhhhhhh!!!

Saturday, March 14, 2009

So Lame

IM SORRY BUT I JUST HAD TO DENY THAT REQUEST. HE SO0O0O0O0O LAME. LIKE DEAD ASS. THE MESSAGES & SHIT I BE GETTING ON MYSPACE IS VERY WEIRD AND STUPID SOMETIMES I JUST PUT IT ON BLAST AND THIS SHIT RIGHT HERE WAS VERY LAME. AND WHAT IN THE HELL HE DOING IN THAT PICTURE???.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Thoughts & shit I collected

Why is it so dam cold today?? {well to me it is maybe not to some of yall}
I cant stand the cold but I sleep very well when im nice and cold. LoL weird right? Yea I know.

I still got these dam box braids in, shit I had them in since feb 6th. So you already know I got mad
new growth. Well im not sure to when im taking these shits out. I can see my grey strands of hair too only up really close though. SMH how fucking sad is that...

Im glad to see that some people in this are changing. Thats very good too!!!!

why do I be up sometimes pass 2:OOam and dont even be sleepy. Some nights I have to force myself to sleep....

YAY my lil man turn the big 2 on the 24th. Yes he getting big, I cant believe it. I miss him being a new born. Awww those was the days....

Is my man coming home next month???Shit I really hope so I aint see him in months, im tryna go see him soon though.

Why is it so dam boring???

273 buddies on aim and how many I hit up or hit me up ?? Proballii like a 100 0f them.

Ok this it for this post cuz my thigh got a pain in it ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh and im via-laptop

Monday, March 2, 2009

FUSTRATED

SHIT SO WHICKED NOW A DAYS.

ITS SNOW OUTSIDE OMG UGHHHHHHHH....

HMMMMMM I GOT MY 7TH TATTOO THE OTHER DAY....NOT GON SAY WHAT IT IS CAUSE I DONT WANT YALL LOOKING AT ME LIKE IM STUPID......I SHOULDNT REALLY WORRY ABOUT WHAT YALL THINK CAUSE ITS MY BODY RIGHT??...LOL

WELL ANYWAYS I WISH THIS SNOW WOULD GO AWAY AND SUMMER HURRY UP AND COME. SHIT I DONT LIKE THE COLD......

IM JUST SO FUSTRATED I NEED TO GET AWAY FROM NEW YORK LIKE ASAP. YES I REALLY NEED A VACATION. PEOPLE ARE REALLY STARTING TO GET ON MY FUCKING NERVES INCLUDING MY MOM. FOR REAL. IM JUST STRESSED TO THE POINT I THINK MY HAIR MIGHT FALL OUT IF I STRESS ANY LONGER. SO IM TRYNA SEE WHATS UP WITH GETTING THE FUCK OUT OF NEW YORK FOR A WHILE. DEAD ASS. CAUSE THIS FUCKING SHIT HERE I CANT TAKE IT...

WELL IM OFF TO READ SOME OF YALL POSTS.....








Thursday, February 19, 2009

ITS TRUE

"IF YOU CONSTANTLY TELL A MAN HE'S CHEATING THAN SOONER OR LATER HE WILL"

(ITS TRUE I BEEN THROUGH IT. BELIEVE ME. IF YOU SIT UP THERE AND TELL A MAN HE'S CHEATING WHEN HE SAYING HE AINT THAN IF HE REALLY IS CHEATING HE'S GONNA KEEP DOING IT AND IF HE NOT CHEATING HE WILL START JUST BECAUSE YOU ACCUSING HIM OF DOING SO.

YES HE WILL FEEL LIKE "SHE ALREADY KNOW IM CHEATING SO WHY NOT KEEP DOING IT" OR "SHE ALREADY THINK IM CHEATING SO WHY NOT START CHEATING"

YEAH NONE OF THIS MAY SOUND TRUE OR MAKE ANY SENSE TO YALL BUT ITS REALLY TRUE AND MAKES ALOT OF SENSE IF YOU REALLY THINK ABOUT IT OR BEEN THROUGH IT LIKE I HAVE....YA FEEL ME?

HELL YEAH ITS WRONG BUT THATS JUST SOME MEN!!!

"MEN WILL BE MEN REGARDLESS IF YOU LIKE IT OR NOT" AND ITS A SHAME I KNOW.

SO WHEN YOU GOTTA REAL MAN(FAITHFUL MAN) YOU BETTER HOLD ON TO HIM CAUSE I KNOW ITS GON BE HARD TO FIND ANOTHER REAL MAN CAUSE IT AINT THAT MANY REAL MEN IN THIS WORLD HALF OF THEM ARE MARRIED OR IN PRISON.

YA DIG WHAT IM SAYING?

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Life is short as hell

YES LIFE IS REALLY SHORT AND ITS REALLY KRAZII. KINDA SCARY TOO SHIT.

ALL IM SAYING IS "LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT"..THERE IS NO DAM TIME TO BE WASTED FOR REAL CAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW YOU CAN BE GON BY TOMORROW. YES LIFE IS THAT SHORT...

OK NOW IF YOUR BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND/FRIEND/SISTER/BROTHER/UNCLE/GRANDPARENTS TELLING YOU TO COME VISIT THEM ONE DAY JUST GO AND DONT SAY "MAYBE SOME OTHER TIME" CAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW IT JUST MIGHT NOT BE A NEXT TIME. FEEL ME? AND IF YOU ARE BUSY ON THAT DAY THEY WANNA LINK UP JUST INVITE THEM TO WHEREVER YOUR GONNA BE BUSY AT LOL. WELL YALL SHOULD GET WHAT IM SAYING.

SORRY THIS A SHORT POST THIS TIME

LOL HOW SHORT IS IT THO????





Monday, February 16, 2009

Boring Mondays

Yes mondays seem so boring, I cant believe I been in the house all day. Didnt even step foot in the hallway today and usally I do but I dont know whats wrong with me. Maybe cause Im missing my babii cuzzin but I know sooner or later I will be just fine. Tommorow im going outside I dont care how cold it is out there either. LoL. Well here lately I been taking pictures. So imma share them with yall.



Pretty Flicks or what??....People keep saying im getting FAT. Which is not true in my eyes. Maybe they saying that cause im always saying "Im hungry". Shit I really do be hungry LoL. I love food and cant live without some. If Im angry you better go get me some food. Cause it calms me down alot.

Dam im really missing Chris like krazii..I ask myself how much longer can I go holding him down???..than I say "thats a stupid question" because if I made it this far holding him down I can go further!!...right? what yall think??.. I love him to death so im always gon be here for him.
Wishing he hurry up and come home thats all.

...........

Im so bored in this dam house. It really sucks so much for real!!!
Dam I feel like a I need a new life..SHit I do need a new Life.

Imma start changing mad shit!!

Change is always good!!!!

Im going to grease my scalp so imma end this post!

I might type another one before I go to bed thats if im not to tired after I grease my scalp!!!

DUCES!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Lost

On friday was my babii cuzzin funeral..OMG so sad!!

I took pictures but I will not post up here its too emotional for real.

I still cant believe he's really gone....

I just dont wanna believe he's gone. I stood at that casket for so long. I didnt wanna leave his side. People tried to pull me awaii I just wouldnt move though.It hurt my heart to see him like that. I love him and wished he could of had more time to live. I know I will meet him again so until than all I can do is be strong.

R.I.P LiL NorriS

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Okay I Guess

YEA I GUESS IM OKAY. JUST TRYNA STAY STRONG BUT ITS HARD. I CANT EVEN EXPLAN HOW I FEEL. MY MIND JUST ALL FUCKED UP.

MY BABII CUZZIN FUNERAL ON FRIDAY. I ALREADY KNOW IMMA TAKE IT REAL HARD. NOT CRYING IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME AT FUNERALS NO MATTER HOW HARD I SQUEEZE MY EYES SO THE TEARS WONT COME OUT, THAT SHIT DOESNT WORK. ITS LIKE I LOST A BABII BUT IT WASNT MINE BUT I CAN FEEL THE PAIN THAT THE PARENTS ARE GOING THROUGH. ITS SO SAD. DAM I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. EVERYTHING SEEM SO FUCKED UP.

I WANTED TO HAVE A SPECIAL BOND WITH MY BABII CUZZIN . FOR REAL I WANTED TO BE THAT BIG CUZZIN WHERE HE CAN COME TO ME ABOUT ANYTHING I MEAN ANYTHING DOESNT MATTER WHAT IT IS. YES I WOULD OF BEEN THERE FOR HIM THROUGH EVERYTHING. BEEN ON HIS SIDE WHETHER HE WAS RIGHT OR WRONG. I WOULD OF HAD HIS BACK.

DAM I THOUGHT MY LIL MAN WAS GON REALLY HAVE SOMEBODY TO RUN AROUND WITH AND SHIT. YA KNOW DRIVE ME KRAZII. THEY COULD OF HAD SLEEP OVERS AND EVERYTHING. I WOULD OF TOOK MY BABII CUZZIN EVERYWHERE ME AND MY LIL MAN WENT. OMG THIS IS REALLY KILLING MY HEART LIKE DEAD ASS. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO.

I LOVE KIDS THATS WHY THIS IS BREAKING MY HEART SO MUCH!!!!

WELL IMMA STOP HERE MAYBE POST ANTHER POST LATER OR W/E


Friday, February 6, 2009

Sad day

WHAT A SAD DAY IT IS FOR ME TODAY. MY SIDEKICK FELL IN THE TOILET SO ITS KINDA GOOD/BAD NOW...IM NOT EVEN STRESSING THIS DAM SIDEKICK RIGHT NOW....


MY BABII CUZZIN WHO I AINT GET TO MEET YET DIED TODAY AND HE JUST MADE 1 MONTH OLD TODAY. HE WAS BORN WHEN HIS MOM WAS 6 MONTHS PREGNANT (JAN 6, 2009). HE WAS IN THE HOSPITAL SINCE HE WAS BORN. HE NEEDED HELP BREATHING. SAD RIGHT?. I CANT BELIEVE IT. ALL I CAN DO IS CRY MY HEART OUT. DAM I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY IN THIS POST. SO PLEASE BEAR WITH ME. IM TAKING IT HARD RIGHT NOW.......

R.I.P TO MY BABII CUZZIN NORRIS...I LOVE U AND MISS U ALREADY!

SMFH...DAM YO

DONT KNOW WHEN IMMA WRITE ANOTHER POST SO UNTIL THAN SMOOCHES YALL!

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

CRYING OUT

IM SITTING HERE CRYING OUT MY FUCKING HEART WHILE LISTENING TO MUSIC. MUSIC HELPS ME CALM DOWN AND SO DOES FOOD BUT SINCE IM BEING LAZII IM NOT GONNA GET UP AND FIX ME SOMETHING TO EAT.

REASON IM CRYING IS CAUSE THESE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS MY MOM BEEN STRESSING ME OUT AND SHIT. COMPLAINING OVER LIL SHIT AND WANTING TO ARGUE AND FIGHT ALL THE TIME. THE FIGHTING AND ARGUING ALL THE TIME IM JUST NOT TRYNA GO THROUGH THAT WITH NOBODY THIS YEAR. I DONT MEAN TO GET STRESSED BUT THIS LADII THAT CALLS HERSELF MY MOM IS REALLY ON MY LAST NERVE. IM AT THIS POINT WHERE IM JUST GON SNAP OUT AND DO SOMETHING KRAZII. I REALLY JUST NEED TO GET AWAY FOR REAL.

SEE I CAN ONLY TAKE SO MUCH FROM A PERSON UNTIL IT ANNOYS THE SHIT OUT OF ME AND MY MOM IS ANNOYING THE SHIT OUT OF ME. SHE WAS JUST SAYING SOME BULLSHIT OUT HER MOUTH I JUST FELT LIKE SMACKING THE SHIT OUT OF HER IT SOUNDS MEAN BUT THATS JUST A FEELING I HAD. I JUST SAT HERE AND KEPT MY MOUTH SHUT BECAUSE I WOULD HAVE REALLY HURT THIS LADII FOR REAL. WHEN IM MAD AND CRYING I TEND TO GO KRAZII AND NOBODY CAN STOP ME. SO IM CRYING AND I DECIDED TO TYPE A POST. AS I TYPE THIS ITS CALMING ME DOWN A LIL AND SO IS THIS MUSIC....

"THIS WORLD WILL REALLY BE FUCKED UP WITHOUT ANY MUSIC, THANK GOD FOR
MUSIC".........


WHY CANT SHE JUST KNOCK IT THE FUCK OFF?????

OMG I JUST WANNA SCREAM OUT LOUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, February 2, 2009

UPDATE I GUESS

FIRST OFF IF YOU AINT KNOW I GOT TWO MORE TATTOOS(5TH & 6TH ONE) "MY GRANDMA AND MOM NAME"IN ONE WEEK. YEAH ITS A ADDICTIVE. TO ME THEY DONT HURT EITHER. I TAKE IT LIKE A G. LOL WELL ANYWAYS MY LIFE IS GOING GOOD I GUESS. JUST WANTING CHRIS TO COME HOME. IM MISSING HIM LIKE KRAZII. HE STILL IN THAT DAM BOX. OMG I NEED TO HERE HIS VOICE OR SOMETHING. WELL IT COST $80 TO GO SEE HIM NOW. BUT WHEN HE WAS AT THE OLD PRISON IT ONLY WAS $50. SHIT THEY TRIPPING. WELL IF I DO GO SEE HIM IT GOTTA BE REAL SOON!!! JUST TALKING AND THINKING ABOUT CHRIS MAKES ME WANNA CRY CAUSE HE NEEDS TO BE HOME WITH ME. BEING ALONE ON THEM COLD DAYS WITH NOBODY TO CUDDLE WITH REALLY SUCKS. FOR REAL I CRY SOMETIMES!

MOVING ON......


ME AND MY BABYFATHER ARE LIKE THE BEST OF FRIENDS NOW WELL SOMETHING LIKE THAT CUZ WE REALIZED ALL THAT FIGHTING AND SHIT AINT WORTH IT. YUP IT REALLY AINT IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT.


WOW I CANT BELIEVE JANUARY JUST FLEW BY SO FAST. TIME NEED TO SLOW DOWN. LMAO I DONT WANNA GET OLD YET. NEXT MONTH MY LIL MAN WILL BE THE BIG 2 . DAM I CANT BELIEVE IT. MY LIL MAN ABOUT TO BE A BIG MAN BEFORE I KNEW IT. FOR REAL...

OK THIS IS IT FOR THIS POST CAUSE IM GETTING TIRED OF TYPING AND MY LIL MAN QUAN WONT GO BACK TO SLEEP...

SMOOCHES!!!!!

Monday, January 26, 2009

FINALLY SHOPPED

HEY EVERYONE SORRY I BEEN M.I.A LOL AGAIN . WELL I FINALLY WENT SHOPPING YAY THANK GOD. CAUSE IT FELT LIKE I AINT SHOP IN YEARS. WENT SHOPPING THREE DAYS IN A ROW. YEAH I HAD TO GET ME AND MY SON SOME STUFF. WE GOT MATCHING SNEAKERS LOL IM HYPE DONT MIND ME. I JUST LOVE SHOPPING WHEN I CAN. FOR REAL ITS MAKES ME HAPPY.

I EVEN BROUGHT ME THIS
YES THATS MY LAPTOP. ITS A "ASUS"(THATS THE BRAND) AND I LOVE IT EVEN WHEN I LOSE SIGNAL LOL. ITS SO TINY AND SEXY DONT YOU THINK?....IM HYPE CAUSE I FINALLY GOT A LAPTOP SOMETHING I WANTED FOR A WHILE.

IM SO HAPPY I CANT EXPLAIN!!! LOL

AWWWW LOOK AT MY LIL MAN ISNT HE SO HANDSOME !! (THATS MY HEART HE COMPLETE ME)


AND HERE IS THE LAST PIC IN THIS POST GUESS WHO? ME OF COURSE WITH MY SHOPPING MONEY IN MY HAND......
IM TOO HYPE IMMA END THIS POST HERE!

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

JAN 20TH


INAUGURATION DAY!!!!

~AT THIS TIME IM WATCHIN "YES WE WILL INAUGURAL CELEBRATION" ON BET~

BARACK OBAMA-OUR 44TH PRESIDENT AND OUR FIRST AFRICAN AMERICAN PRESIDENT!!!!! ~~~~~~~~~~IM SO HAPPY~~~~~~~~~~~

YES WE MADE HISTORY!!!!! WHOOP WHOOP!!!!

WE GON HAVE ALOT OF HATERS FOR THIS RIGHT HERE BUT IT AINT NOTHING.......

CHANGE IS COMING, BELIEVE THAT CAUSE I DAM SURE DO!


Thursday, January 15, 2009

Dam

DAM IS WHAT I SAID TODAY WHEN I REALIZED I HAVENT POSTED A BLOG IN SO LONG AND I HAVENT BEEN READING YALL POST LIKE I SHOULD BEEN DOING. SORRY. ITS JUST THAT I BE FORGETING AND SHIT. KRAZII RIGHT? BUT DID YALL MISS ME ? LOL. WELL IMMA START BEING ON HERE MORE OFTEN. SHIT I DONT EVEN GET ON MYSPACE THAT MUCH NOMORE CAUSE I USE TO BE ON IT ALL DAY LOL . I JUST CHECK MY MESSAGES AND SIGN RIGHT OFF. HALF THE TIME I DONT EVEN WANNA GET ON THE COMPUTER. I DONT KNOW IM GETTIG OLD I GUESS LOL. THIS COMPUTER SEEM SO WHACK AT TIMES.

NOW I DO BOOK KEEPING AT THIS DINER, ONCE A WEEK (EVERY WEDNESDAY). SO WHACK I KNOW. BUT I GOTTA GET MONEY ONE WAY OR ANOTHER......YA DIG IT? BUT IM STILL LOOKING FOR ANOTHER JOB.

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THEY MOVED MY MAN CHRIS TO ANOTHER PRISON. ITS MORE FAR THAN THE OLD PRISON. SHIT KRAZII. I JUST WANT HIM TO COME HOME BUT ALL I CAN DO IS BE PATIENT FOR REAL. I DONT KNOW WHEN IMMA GO VISIT HIM BUT IT WILL BE SOON.

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I FINALLY TOOK MY RED AND BLACK BOX BRAIDS OUT AND PUT A PERM IN MY HAIR. LOL YEA I SHOULD OF LET THE HAIR SALON DO MY PERM BECAUSE AFTER I DID IT SHIT AINT LOOK LIKE I HAD A PERM SO I HAD TO FLAT IRON IT. SHOOT MY HAIR MAD THICK. I LIKE IT THICK THOUGH CAUSE WHEN ITS THIN I KINDA FEEL BALD HEADED..LOL

DAM I CANT BELIEVE ITS SNOWING RIGHT NOW, EVEN THOUGH I LOVE SNOW. IM SITTING HERE FUCKING BORED OUT MY MIND. LOL

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YAY BIGGIE MOVIE COMING OUT TOMORROW . IM SO HYPE TO SEE IT. ITS GON BE SO KRAZII TOMORROW I CAN FEEL IT(NIGGAHS GON WILD OUT WATCH). IM NOT EVEN SURE IF IMMA GO SEE THE MOVIE TOMORROW OR WHAT. BUT I REALLY WANNA SEE IT.


WELL ANYWAYS IM ABOUT TO READ SOME OF YALL BLOGS AND IMMA TRY NOT TO GO MISSIN IN ACTION NOMORE!!!! LOL SHIT I DONT BE HAVING NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT. MY LIFE IS KINDA BORING SO THATS ANOTHER REASON I DONT BE HAVING NOTHING TO WRITE ABOUT .

Sunday, January 4, 2009

WOW 2009 IS HERE

I KNOW I KEEP GOING M.I.A FROM WRITTING POSTS. MY BAD!! WELL HAPPY NEW YEARS YALL. ARE YALL FEELING THIS YEAR BETTER THAN LAST YEAR???? CAUSE IM FORSHO GON LOVE THIS YEAR BETTER THAN LAST YEAR WELL HOPEFULLY I DO. SORRY LATELY I JUST DONT BE IN A BLOG MOOD SO I DONT POST ANYTHING. KINDA DONT BE HAVING NOTHING TO SAY. HMMM I SEE ALOT OF PEOPLE HAVE RESOLUTIONS FOR THIS YEAR WELL I DONT HAVE ONE, CANT THINK OF ANY.

EVERYBODY SO HYPE ABOUT THE NEW YEAR SAYING "NEW YEAR NEW ME" DONT PEOPLE SAY THAT EVERY YEAR???...........YEA THEY DO. ONLY THING DIFFERENT ABOUT EACH YEAR IS THAT THE NUMBERS CHANGE. SOME PEOPLE DONT REALLY CHANGE WHICH DONT REALLY MATTER TO ME( LOL). WELL THIS YEAR I DONT KNOW IF I WILL CHANGE, JUST GOTTA WAIT IN SEE CAUSE SHIT HAPPENS.

IF YOU THOUGHT I WAS NICE TO YOU LAST YEAR MAYBE I WILL BE NICER TO YOU THIS YEAR. NOW IF YOU THOUGHT I WAS MEAN TO YO
U LAST YEAR THAN MAYBE THIS YEAR I JUST MIGHT SAY "FUCK YOU"...LOL I DONT KNOW. I ALWAYS SPEAK MY MIND SO WHAT EVER COMES OUT MY MOUTH IT JUST COMES OUT AND THIS YEAR I MIGHT NOT REALLY CARE ABOUT PEOPLE FEELINGS LIKE I DID LAST YEAR.

I DONT KNOW WHAT THIS YEAR IS GONNA BRING
BUT IM JUST PRAYING THAT CHRIS COME HOME THIS YEAR. CAUSE THIS SHIT GOT ME GOING KRAZY ON THE INSIDE. SHIT MY LOVE IS LOCKED IN A CELL. SHIT IS KILLING ME!!!

YEAH SO I HOPE I HAVE A GOOD YEAR THIS YEAR CAUSE I DONT WANNA HAVE A FUCKED UP YEAR LIKE LAST YEAR. BEEN THROUGH THE DRAMA AND STRESS. OH HELL NO I DONT WANNA GO THROUGH THAT SHIT T
HIS YEAR. I WANNA BE DRAMA AND STRESS FREE THE WAY TO BE. YA DIG IT?

ISNT IT AMAZING HOW FAST 2009 GOT HERE. I ME
AN LIKE DAM IT JUST FELT LIKE YESTERDAY WHEN IT WAS JAN 1ST 2008. DOESNT IT? OR AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT FEEL LIKE THAT??????. SEE TIME IS FUCKING FLYING THATS WHY I SAY "LIFE IS TO SHORT TO BE UNHAPPY" FOR REAL.

WELL IM OUT HOPEFULLY I BE BACK WITH ANOTHER POST WHEN I BE IN THE MOOD TO POST AGAIN BUT DONT WORRYING IM STILL READING YALL POST.

YES THATS ME BEFORE THE BALL DROPPED. LOL I WAS LIL TIPSY THOUGH